stepping away from happy

2010-08-30T13:11:00.000-07:00

最近的生活，
想坐过山车拟。
心情上上下下。
我还真受不了这样的刺激。

我还不懂这个世界还有谁，
是真真地关心我。
可是当有人关心的时候，
真地很窝心。

我真的很久没有试过了。
开始承认自己是一个很极端的人。
我的想法，我的动作。
一切来自我的经历。

忘不了的痛，
每想起，就真地很痛。
开始做起防备，
预防下个武器的攻击。

我明白，我不会是最可怜的那一个。
因为实际我还比许多人幸福得多。
我经得起痛苦，
因为我要这一些痛深深的刻在我心里，
永远记住。
我再也不想痛了，
刻在心里的，是迎接下一个快乐章节的门道。

我觉得现在的我很快乐，
同时，我觉得现在是我人生最低潮的时候。
着一种矛盾的心情，比难过来得更难过，
比快乐来得更愉快。

我能宣布，我又完成了人生里头的一个章节。
是时候准备下一个章节的时候了。
以前的我，不希望成为巴士司机。
因为我不希望在我人生中出现过的人，
都只是曾搭我巴士的一个客人。

我开始进入了另一个境界。
我的角度开始变得很阔。
我看的事情比以前来得清楚多。
这是好事还是坏事？

我不是一个很厉害的人，
我不能以自己的能力，改变这个世界。
可是我愿意改变自己，去配合这个世界。
很多东西我不能控制，那只好控制我自己。

最近我感觉身体好像亮了红灯。
我开始变弱了。

我一天一天的成长，
现在的我，逆风18。
我已经走了很远的路了，
但是镜头还离我和远。

未来谁能保证？
可能我会是一个很快乐的人，
可能我会很不快乐。

可是我决定了，今夜我会很快乐的睡觉。
新的一天还在等待我出发。
我拼命的在世界挣扎，累死我了。
也许那一天，我会找到一个我值得去累的理由。

晚安地球人

2010-08-17T04:24:00.000-07:00

很久没上来。
现在，我还存有一丝的希望。
我不懂得爱。

最起码的东西，
当他回家前，他会和我说声他不来了。
当他放学后，他还会给我一个电话。

还没到一分钟都不理我的地步。
我拥有过，我没觉得后悔。

我还记得，
以前她约了她的他，
她还会特地来找我。
因为她的心里有我。
那时候的我是最开心的。

可是，今天她却找回他。
而在我这里算是浪费时间吧。

我给了自己很多很多的借口，
让我自己感到不难过，
然我不会生气。

我说服了自己很久。
我告诉自己没什么的。
可是，我真的受伤了。

我的脆弱，我的坚强，互相斗争。

我很害怕，很害怕，
幸福只剩下碎片，存在回忆里。

我最开心的事，
就是我和你曾有过只属于我们的回忆。
我一生无悔。

我可以说，有成长了。
可是对爱情的渴望，
减少。

这是我的人生。

也许到了某一天，
只剩下我一个人在步行。
当我想念你的时候，
我会回到我们曾约会过的地方。
当我怀念你的时候，
我会去吃我们最喜欢吃的东西。

可是当我想见你的时候呢？
那个时候，我能怎样？

我会好好过。
你会比我幸福的。

你爱他，比我爱你久。
我迟了。

我不后悔和你在一起，
我后悔当初我没有踏出第一步。
我不会在这样笨了

2010-07-05T11:12:00.000-07:00

今晚，我的心情灰色的。
我很不开心。
从小到大，我被抛弃。
当我是足球踢来踢去。

我很想每一天都见到我想见的人。
可是有一天，他不想再见到我。
我很想念很想念。

感觉好像小时候，
看着家人的车反方向的开，
离我越来越远。

我非常不喜欢这种被抛弃的感觉。
为什么你们都喜欢给我希望。
为什么你们当初每天都找我，给我欢乐。
为什么今天过后你们都不再找我？
为什么你们那么喜欢丢下我一个人？

为什么以前都要我约我的朋友，然后全部都说不的空。
为什么当你们想找我的时候，
我要一通电话就立刻赶过去。
是因为如果这次我不赶过去，
我再也不知道你们几时才得空。
就算我很忙，就算我在考试，
我也得赶过去和你们谈谈天。

为什么我今天要被丢下一个人？
为什么我要一个人？
为什么？

我很累，很累，
很想睡却不能好好的睡。
我在厨房绕了很多个圈。
我很想让自己累得什么都想不到。
我抽烟抽到想呕。
我很想麻醉自己。
很想每一晚都有安眠药吃。
很想让自己睡下去永远再也起不到来。

别再给我任何的希望和快乐了。
我再也不想要这一切。

2010-06-23T11:31:00.000-07:00

今天我上了宝贵的一堂课。
往往生活中，
我们会不断地去计较。
好胜心往往可能是让我失败的最终原因。

有些东西原来不能去计较。
每个人都有自己的道理在，
不让步，小事变化大。
今天我学会了让步。
回想到最原始的什么叫做让步，
今天如果我走在走廊上，
对方向我过着来，
我不靠边走他走不过去，
一样的，我走不过去。
那为何要等对方让步。
大家都只想去到自己的目的地。

看见自己最在意的人大哭，受伤了。
原来我得到的是心痛。
因为他是我最在意的人，这是事实。
调换的，也许生活中要迁就自己在意的人，
偶尔会感觉到疲累，
但是他的快乐和微笑，
却是我最大的回报。

我从来不知道怎样去对一个人好，
因为我很怕受伤。
可是做人不应该执著。
我应该全心全意地让我在意的人快乐。
最起码自己也不会感觉到辛苦。

我一天一天的成长着。
不知道身边的人有多少个是关心我的。
但生活依然继续。
要活得精彩，那就要学会怎样去和别人相处。
我醒了~
这一次再也不需要时间去改变任何东西。
因为我要改变。

实行改变自己政策。
欢呼世界和平，劝服我不再打仗的人，
许榕惠，你改变了我。
你会是我生活中不能缺少的一个人。

以后让我对你好好么？
让我好好的照顾你好么？

冯家润，真心的向你道歉他的错。
一切都成为过去了。
那你能接受我的过去么？
迎接新的我。

nth gonna change my love for you.
Is very into you.

Change the old me and start with the new me.
Ken fong is stepping on a positive stage,

I miss you~

2010-05-21T23:37:00.000-07:00

Right now, alone sitting at KLCC starbucks.

Don't really know what to do,

But I do enjoy my mocha coffee.

I'm free and do whatever I want.

No need to care other.

listening to thunder.

It let me memory the day we went to sunway Mtv world stage.

My best friend.

I have a long time din meet some of my best fren,

since I left my high school.

Another new life started.

and my pass is stepping away far from me.

Take care.

the whether is nice today.

enjoy

完美并不完美。

2010-05-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

完美并不完美。
原来我一点也不是想象的坚强。
只不过平时爱装的坚强，
到头来，每个人都以为我不会有伤心的一天。
在我不开心的时候，又有谁会知道，
就算知道了，又有谁会来安慰？

这个世界，对我来说，再也没有意义。
因为我身边的人，
不断的一个一个离开我。
我能控制么？
那我要怎样改变？

今天一个人在外面吃晚餐，
坐在角落的一个人。
我真的觉得自己很一个人。
我真的不想一个人。
我很想知道世界上还有没有关心我的人？
今天晚上，我哭了很久。
脑海不断的在想，谁会出现。
我知道是不可能有人的。

也许我的性格真的很有问题。
其实我是个好人，是个普通人。
享有一个很了解我的人，
等了十八年，我还是如此。

我知道我不是最可怜的，
因为世界上还有很多人比我不幸。
那我宁愿曾经不幸过，
那现在的我，应该会很开心。

终于感受到了，
when you are happy, the world will smile tgt with you.
But when you cry, u cry alone.
那老天爷给我选择的机会，
我宁愿从来都感受不到快乐，
那我就不会知道什么是伤心。

我再也不会期望太多，
原来高高跌下来的感觉，
真的很痛，很痛。

我做人对自己的要求，
其实一点也不重要。
假如世界配合不了你，
我永远都不会成功。
是时候学习如何配合这个世界。
明白世界要的是什么，
而做什么出来。

日子一天一天的过，
到死的那一天，
不知道如何对自己交待。
原来我真的很喜欢许榕惠。
原来我最想得到是他的关心，
在我哭的时候，他会在我身边。

我不会再说自己想要什么或想做什么。
因为很多人会觉得我傻的。
可能也不会有人去听。
那我也不想再说了。
我的人生就这样。
开心与不开心，日子一样过。

如果朋友们不得空，身边的亲人不得空。
我愿意再次一个人去戏院甚至歌房。
我永远是被上帝操控的人类。
我看开了。

晚安地球人

人生没有完美的结局！

2010-04-21T13:46:00.000-07:00

这个夜晚，我觉得很充实。
我好久没有用手写字了，
知从spm完毕以后。
一直在用电脑，
也忘记了自己的字体是怎样的。
好久没有deadline的感觉。
没有功课要交。
可是今天终于感觉到了，
我要帮忙榕惠完成他去香港比赛的作品。
榕惠，支持你哦。
一定要完成你自己的梦想。

你不需要读会计，商业才帮得上我忙。
因为你的鼓励，就是我每一天的动力。
知道么？

很多东西，我暂停了很久。
我自行给了自己一个很长的假期。
我的假期多两个星期就要结束了。
我很期待重新的感觉。
他让我感觉很新鲜。
在这新的开始，一切都不能向以前一样。

不管以前的我是聪明，笨蛋。
一切都已过去了。
下一个天亮，才是我要奋斗的方向。

最近我都没有在工作了，
我赚的钱，停了。
终于明白什么是手停口停了。

一直以为自己有多么的厉害，
其实还只不过如此。
我被胜利冲破头脑了，
因为自己的好胜心蒙掉了自己的眼睛。
我做人是有信心，
不能肯定每一件事情都可以做得很好，
可是，我会尽力去做。

有时候我不应该给自己太多的压力，
我自己想得太多，
就算躺着在床上，也很难入睡。
很想把自己做到最好，
可是偏偏现在就是很烂。
是时候让自己好好的睡一觉了。

每个人都有自己的梦想。
我的梦想，就是实现梦想。
残废人士都可以参加奥运，
那我们正常人还有什么事不能？
we can be more!

晚安地球人。
晚安小榕惠。
我的睡美人要好好休息了。
起床记得找外星人。

2010-04-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

今天的心情怪怪的。
我开始安静起来了。
不知道要说什么。
也不懂该说些什么。
每当我不开心的时候，
我都不知道可以找谁陪我聊天。
好多好多心事想说。
很想痛快的大哭一场。

刚刚在想，其实这个世界还有多少关心我的人。
想来想去想不通。
又在想，曾关心过我的人，现在呢？
感觉时间就是很短暂，
我真的很珍惜对我好的人。
有的时候我会很感动。
忘记了感动到哭的感觉是怎样的。

从来没有一个人可以很了解我。
因为有的时候就连我自己也不懂自己。
感觉每一天都戴着面具做人，
很不真实的生活。
很害怕自己会受到伤害。
一直控制着自己。
很害怕再也不会有很开心的一天。
老天也很喜欢和我开玩笑，
每当给了我一个希望，
就突然的把它拿走。

一开始没有期望，就不会失望。
我的内心世界很复杂。
我真的很不开心，
很想有人可以陪我聊天。

还记得以前我向碧琦发很大脾气，
因为我的脾气，他离开了我。
其实我以前是很紧张他，
所以才会这样。
那时候开始，我就和自己说要把坏脾气改掉。
也许不会有人喜欢我这样的人。
十个过来，也许走了九个。
我太傻了，一直以为自己很好，
回想看，其实我也不是什么好东西。

如果我撞车失忆了，
我就再也不需要管到底还有谁会理我。
不需要人家理。
什么都不需要。

唉~我不知道。
现在很想死掉，什么都不用管。
一开始我就不应该来到这个世界！
真的很不应该。

晚安地球人。

2010-04-18T13:18:00.000-07:00

We are the couple.

` haha`

I woke up pretty early at saturday.

Had have dim sum for breakfast with rong hui and ming wei.

That was my very first time of waking up early since spm ended.

haha

Then We went to KLCC pc fair.

accompany my dear shop arround there.

After that, we went to maison club.

Freaking much people there.

really people mountain people sea.

The beep make me feel bad.

It was not normal loud, is fuckin loud.

haiya, clubbing is like that one.

Overnight at my dear home.

We both sleep until 5pm in the next day.

having breakfast plus lunch at lesure mall old town.

haha

My daddy had already bought me a car.

Is for me drive to college next time.

Not bad even that's not a branded car.

cuz i'm just 18.

Malaysia make me feel bored.

any nice place intro?

shopping complex is damn bored except u got thing to buy.

other than this, what can entertain me?

No more party recently, no more event or function.

My life is going down down down.

I need some fun.

I need some people.

All my friends not free is because boss had bought their time.

They need to work for money.

I noticed if i am rich, I will not feel happy at all.

Because i got no one can share with.

But if i am fucking rich, i will be fucking happy.

because i can buy all my friend's time.

haha.

Haiz...Why can't I born rich?

Am listening to fm static, tonight. again.

I love this song.

It's not very special, but suit my feel.

suddenly like to wake up early everyday.

I love the morning sun.

Because it make me feel healthy.

haha.

is time to sleep. good night to everyone.

and I miss you my dear rong hui.

2010-04-14T13:12:00.000-07:00

做人真难。
不知道，今天和榕惠吵架了。
对不起。
感觉我不懂得别人的心情。
我很自以为是，很自大，很自恋。
这些都是我的缺点。

我很想做个改变。
对自己太有自信，期望太高，
到后来只会让自己跌得更伤。
最近都感觉很累。
也不知道自己在做什么。
很慢无目的的走。
我觉得很失败。
有时候晚上也觉得自己很孤单。

真的不想去想太多，
很想睡醒就算。
我有种说不出来的感觉，
他让我觉得很悲，很累。
我很不开心。
没有原因的不开心。
可能是太久都没有真真的笑过了。
也忘了自然笑和开心的感觉是怎样的。

这些年来，不知道有谁曾陪过在我身边。
很不确定的到底谁是我的好朋友。
那我的未来呢？他又在那里？
我很lost啊~

榕惠，你是真的喜欢我么？
想说的是，我希望未来的日子你都会在。
很想与你分享我的下辈子一直到老。
我不知道这个愿望会不会实现。
但是我希望会。
不想你对我发脾气，
也不想和你吵架。
因为我很害怕这样会让你离开我。
我只希望开开心心的一起过日子。
我不敢期望太高，
可是我就是情不自禁的想得到这一切。

如果这个世界只有一种人，你说多好。
我们真的性格不合么？
不懂，这句话很伤人。
因为在我的字典里，从来不会有这一句话。
这些都是想分开的理由。
根本是废话！
从来就没有人的性格可以百分百的合在一起。
只要你是真心喜欢那个人，你就会包容他。
在包容他的过程，你一点也不觉得委屈。
重点是，你看到她开心，你就自然会开心。
所以阿，两个人在一起，
要说的只有开心和不开心，
从来就没有和不合得来。
在一起需要千万个理由。
可是分开，只需要一个理由就够了。
这个就是爱情的最高境界。
所以台湾才会有那么多情歌推出。
也能销售的那么好。

我希望我能够和喜欢的人一起开开心心。
互相迁就也不会感觉到委屈的那种。
这样你想要维持多久，由你控制。
因为这样就好幸福拉，
分手这两个字眼也会离我们很远很远，
甚至看不见，也记不了，什么叫做分手。
因为我们每一天只看见另外的两个字，
幸福，或开心。

榕惠，我爱你。
不知道你怎样想呢？

请读者别怪我写那么多情情踏踏的东西。
我也不想的。让你们肉麻了一下。
可是本少就是正谈恋爱中啊。
所以有所感触。
别见怪。
谢谢

可能我写这些东西是一厢情愿，
但是发自内心，
不找个通道发泄，
我会睡不着。
晚安。

2010-04-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

What I really want is hold you tight.

Berry koh. can I ?

make it happen

2010-04-05T13:16:00.001-07:00

Hello guys.

Am not serious to bloggin recently.

Feeling like not in mood.

I just came back from singapore, it's not long.

By the way, my sister yeeni will visit me again.

She will meet me up next week from singapore.

I'm here waiting for her with her dear boy friend.

I have never see her boy friend arround.

This will be a good chance to meet up her little boy.

Yes, something I want to say.

I hold rong hui's hand tight.

I miss her suddenly in the night.

My life is so wonderful and colorful.

Good things all coming toward me in this year.

I think this year gonna be a good good year.

College start soon.

PC fair accept me.

UCSI accept me.

Berry accept me.

Questnet accept me.

I got it all.

im satisfied but not at all.

cuz i still got my dream.

Thanks for my parents.

they are working freaking hard to earn money.

daddy gonna buy me a car soon,

he told me, cuz I need it to school.

But I dun ever know when I can get it.

parents need to pay me money for school fee.

daddy said will sub me a credit card maybe after this year.

they give me all.

But I know I shouldn't get everything from them.

im already 18, not a kids.

everything I need should depand on myself.

all the things I want should find if by myself.

Cuz im not a rubbish.

I know I shoud do well.

Money make me crazy.

it make me wanna study well.

it make me feel terrible when im still doing ntg here.

Can I share my dream here?

I want a latest sport car in the future.

I want to have my own company in the future.

I want to have my own house with perfect design in the future.

I want to have a lot of best friends to support me in the future.

I want to have a good partner when starting my own business.

I want to have an unlimited black credit card to buy all thing i want.

I want my parents have a healthy body and watching me to success.

I want to study until MBA if I really got the heart.

I want to have a perfect 10 wife in the future.

I want to have a lovely and good family in the future.

I want to show off to all my enemy in the future.

I want to travel arround the world in the future.

I want to retire young when I achieve financial freedom.

I want to be the famous guy in the future.

I want everyone respect me.

I want people accept all the thing i do.

LAST but not LEAST,

I want to make it happen~!!!!

This is what I really want in my future.

everybody have their dream,

But we should find a way out and make dream come true.

but how?

Hold it tight, chance will never ever wait u when u miss it.

this world got no smartest person,

But people who know how to cherish all the chance in his life,

he is the smartest.

To understand well urself,

Find a right stage to perform yourself.

shout out loud, we are not rubbish anymore.

haha, why im like giving a talk.

sry about that, my heard is burning fire.

the fire to make my engine start.

start to think right and make imposible turn to possible.

step by step

One day, the door of the world will open for me.

I will stand on the top and look to the beautiful city.

Are you with me?

Let's make it happen.

好拦翅系甘！

2010-04-02T13:09:00.000-07:00

有D人好烂翅系甘！
我吊烂你啦。
你甘日系用么烂身份吊七我？
大烂过我就系大烂晒？
你烂就大！

我就系吾拦爽9你！
我就系吾拦识9你！
我就系吾拦知，因为你无拦知！

真系吾明白点解总要同你同校。
我diu!
见都你真系想打7你啊妈，
好想问9你啊妈当年做爱系吾系做的好烂爽，
生左你你件垃圾出来。

无系我面前做到好翅系甘！！！
mother fucker...

You are naturally fucker!
你天生会做爱！！！
你被狗叼啦含家岭！

diu你晒9我精神，
全家被狗叼啦。

good your mother fucker night!

NAH~~~~!!!!!凸！！！

2010-03-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

I dun really know what is happening.

actually im not a good guy at all.
or maybe im really a bad guy.
ofcourse if someone is hate me,
can leave me alone.
I will not care about it.

Thanks for those guys who still beside me.
I will try to do my very best to give happiness for all.

Life still need to goes,
I should be awake right now.
Let's GO~

2010-03-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

I have done my passport problem.
I have done the tickets problem.

Yeeni, I am coming over to ur place.
That's will be a fairytale when I see you.
I miss the days we spent together.
I miss the way I walk with you.
I miss the things we do together.
and I miss all about you.
You are just like my sister,
a very good sister who always take care of me.
even you are just my pretty cousin.

I will be there to meet up my brother.
I am looking forward for my singapore trip.

Berry's test, Wish you all the best.

A very first time I go to singapore alone with my friends.
Great experience.
My Holidays is going to finish after I return back to KL.
This is a FUCK

2010-03-11T09:16:00.000-08:00

Woke up pretty early in the morning.
Daddy and mummy fetched me to school for taking result.
I were stress in the moment.
Had breakfast with my dad and mum near by my high school.

Walking arround the school by doing ntg.
Result come out at 10,30 .
I were waiting my classmate finish their exam.
Then take result together.
Thanks god, I got a result which i need.
Happy and is time to prepare and register college.

Is Time to plan how my life goes after this month.
cheque will be coming out soon.
and singapore trip will be make at next week.
Melaka trip, hope can meet my mr francis there.
many stuffs need to buy.
many things need to do.
and many things need to plan.

But im really really happy today.
Because I know I am the lucky one.
Really thanks god~

Friends, congratulation to you guys.
Hope that all of you can have a great graduate year.

2010-03-10T08:21:00.000-08:00

I want to show you what is long term investment.
My journey was just start by this year.
18 years old boy is going to make his dream come true.
I got the feeling, this will be a good good year.

Can you feel it?
the feeling is just like you sitting in the plane,
and you are going to fly~
You have to say goodbye to ur pass,
and say hello to ur future~

Result coming out.
How can a person grow up in a worst enviroment,
But success~
yeah,
althougt you are working hard, maybe you can't success.
But if you want to success, working hard is for sure~

Let's screem out loud to welcome our future~
haha~

2010-03-09T11:12:00.000-08:00

那一天的天空，会是什么颜色？
那一天，我又要踏入校门了。
那一天，我的成绩新鲜出炉。

紧张的心情，其实也不算紧张。
可能是害怕，但也没有很~
可是我就是希望自己能够拿到好成绩。
已经忘记了当时的我付出了怎样多的努力，
而换来今天的成果。

不管结果如何，
希望自己，希望朋友，
都能够拿到自己满意的成绩单。
为大家和自己祈祷三分钟。

刚刚和rong hui一起。
载他回家了，他的车留在这里。
感觉她累了。

在想，如果会有那么一天，
我什么都拥有了，
朋友们还会在我身边吗？
那个时候，谁会陪我一起分享？
我毕业的那一天，除了同学，
还有谁会在呢?

未来真的看不见，
不知道我的未来还有多远，
也不知道未来的朋友还剩下几个。
我每一天的欢乐，都希望能和身边的人分享。
神啊，你觉得我是一个好人吗？
如果你觉得是，那可以让我做个快乐的人吗？

我会一步一步地实现我的梦想。
我会一天一天的长大，成熟点。
我会一年比一年进步，更生性。

人类，人生不是我们想象的长，
其实是比我们想象中来得短暂。
要活得有意义，最重要。

好了，太久没写了，我的作文应该很烂了。
哈哈。循中的朋友们，考试加油~

You make me~

2010-03-07T12:23:00.001-08:00

Why You Always Like To Make Me Laugh.
HAHA, Actually is my joke too lame.
You Make me Miss You When I'm Alone.
You Make Me Wanna Talk With You.
You Make Me Feel Like Wanna Hug You.
You Just Like a Dream in my Life.
An Unforgettable dream.

I will remember what I had ever have.
All the happiness will hide in my heart forever.

My Life is just like a roller coster.
Up and down and down and up~

I really Hope that I can achieve all the things which I want.
Even god tell me my life has only 3 more years to go.
What I need is Life experience.
I want to be somebody I want.

Because I want to prove that I'm still alive.
I am not a death body in the world,

I will try everything which can bring me up to the way of success.
I will do everything which can make me feel happy everyday.
18 years old boy is going to find a way out.

I miss someone in this night.
I really can't control my mind.
You really make me feel so cool~

2010-03-07T04:24:00.000-08:00

Berry~
She came to find me this morning.
We watched angelababy's movie.

After that, she had to go back home for preparing her next dating.
With her V loon at Pavilion for Alice in wonderland.

Suddenly got hungry in the afternoon.
I had have my lunch with ming wei again.

After lunch he need to meet up somebody for doing something important.
I walked arround popular and looking for some books.
Alone in the popular and doing nothing for it.

Finally, im home now.
My life is meaningless right now.
Shouldn't slow down my speed,
but rush for what?

Haha, ofcourse I know is rush for my future.
Planning to do something recently.
But I am still waiting for something important.
The thing will make me stand up and face all the challenging in my life.
But what is that? secret~ haha

will be going to singapore with friends in this month.
Will visit my brother there and my elder beautiful cousin.
Spm result will be out at next week.
stress man~ can I go for fun without any trouble?
Im lost~ haha

I want happy,
I want love,
I want girl,
I want money,
I want cool,
I want nice,
I want healthy,

and I know you want me~!!!

happy day

2010-03-02T10:39:00.000-08:00

Haha, what's an awesome day i have today~
woke up pretty earlier in the morning,
Just because wanna accompany whye return school to do something important.
After that, had a hi tea at somewhere,
Then we went to find berry and one of her friend for lunch.
Good~ But someone said that im not gentlement.
huiyor~ enough lar....dun like this word~

Then berry fetch me back home,
whye went to apple again...
After whye finished his game,
he called me to a park which near by my house.

Me and berry went there and meet him.
I can't see properly where the hell he been.
actually he was sitting on the top of the play ground
Dangerous yet fun and excited.

We dance at the play ground,
we break dance, we learned MJ.
we did a lot of funny action...
we played as a monkey...
That was really monkey~ haha

Berry first time play with me like that,
the feel was just like fairytale
and I enjoy the moment together with them.

Opps, almost forget the most important part ...
Today I went to pavilion,
when im walking I saw one of my primary school friend walking toward me.
I holded her hand in the moment and she was just shock~
Because she talking with her cell phone and couldn't see me at all.
Just asked her where are u going with ur friend?
suddenly her friend ask me and my primary school friend take a picture.
this is so cool and cute....
I can imagine this is really cute...
what's a special stranger and suddenly ask for a pic.
I was stunt for a sec and then took picture with my friend.
The moment was just like MV...haha...

I feel good...I love it....

haha...girl, you are special~

08，s1c5

2010-02-11T08:34:00.000-08:00

08, 高一商五。

我们，过了一年的今天，再次聚会。

原来商五still alive~~!!!

哈哈

我真的觉得很高兴，

日本回来的阿进，变了许多。

现在还留着在循中的，不多。

我已经把08，商五当作是我的毕业班级。

那一天晚上，大家都很开心的聚在一起。

大家都忙着拍照。

可能经过这一次，又要在等多一年了。

我们大家都有了各自的生活，

大家的生活圈子都大了，

看得多了，学得也多了。

可是当我们聚在一起时，还是疯狂的我们。

我不会忘记这个班，

还有你们！！！

请记住，我喜欢你们，真心的那个。

哈哈。

大家应该为自己的人生起跑了。

回到日本的进，要保重。

我也快要上课了，

之后的我可能也不会在马来西亚了。

加油哦~

2010-02-07T18:45:00.000-08:00

昨天我去一家餐厅应征，
是我朋友不断的叫我去的。
一进到去，环境不错，
一旦坐下来，破坏，真的破坏完了。
就是因为桌子上放餐具的那个东西，
感觉好像在大排档一样。
设计得多美都好，如果不把那个东西换掉，
我写保单，一定很难留着顾客。
我看到都没有mood了。

算了吧。

我的审美观还是跟随着，
不管到了那里，美的东西，我永远不会抓不到。
哈哈

later am going out wiht JIN...
maybe overnight at his place.
tmr gathering...

2010-02-02T10:19:00.000-08:00

This world got no free lunch,
you work u get,
u work more u get more~
Want to success,
just pay out all for ur dream.
then u will be success, Why Not?

I understand no pain no gain.
So everyone who are financial freedom now,
just because they work hard for their dream,
that's why today they are succesful people.
and why we are not.

But I believe luck also,
some people can success without pain,
just because they got luck.
If I got no luck,
I need to work harder than them to success.

WHF...BULLSHIT~ mother fucker

good nite

2010-01-30T10:12:00.000-08:00

今天，很早就起床了。
家人一大早就在我去pavilion买东西。
然后就陪家人吃午餐。
kun xiang从马六甲回来了。
我家人做facial去了。

我和kunxiang就买衣服。
在topman买了一条jeans.
他就在philosophy买了一条裤子。
我觉得我们都很潮。
哈哈

我发现，或者说我一路以来，
都很喜欢艺术。
可是今天我和家人说，
及时带我去找大学，
他们就问我，那间大学有accountant吗。

其实我自己也没有想过我将来会读艺术系。
因为我觉得艺术在马来西亚很难发展。
很多人和我说出国啦。
谁不懂？
但是我要以最保险的方式完成我的学业阿。
说出国就出国。真的那么容易就好。
我也想过移民，真的那么容易就好。
谁不想？

其实读accountant也不错啦，
我不是因为没有兴趣，
只是怕自己应付不来。
如果我真的可以，我希望我能够顺利毕业。
我也会很努力的完成。

真的很喜欢创意。
有创意，世界才会更美丽。

我不会放弃我所拥有的艺术细胞的。
因为我记得，我从来没有学过画画，
可是偏偏就是画到那么美。
这是天分，我不能浪费。

我也没有学过摄影，
偏偏就是很多人喜欢我拍的照片。
不是自拍照拉。哈哈

2010-01-26T08:49:00.000-08:00

过了bonanza后，觉得生活开始有一点无聊。
可能觉得累了，想休息一下。
下个星期就拿钱了。很开心~哈哈
不知道bonanza one share会是多少钱了，
如果全世界很少人hit到的话，
四千块一个share,我真的不知道要怎样用。
家人叫我好好存起来。
我也是应该开始学会存钱的好习惯了。

过年了哦，又有很多的红包钱。
最近真的只是看着钱一直随着我而来。
起码现在的我，不需要用家人一分钱。
自己靠自己，感觉是不同的。

过年后，玩多两下，就要准备开学了。
在新的环境，认识新的朋友。
我觉得，我的生活只会越来越精彩。
以前学校的无聊斗争，现在真的离我很远了。
我的目标，梦想，越来越接近。
我又想过，如果我突然死去，会怎样。
我会很不甘心，因为我还没有看完这个世界。

很多人很喜欢说，
其实活着都不懂为了什么。
我觉得，活着就是要看这个世界。
享受这个世界拥有的东西。
看清楚没给地方，每个故事。

哇~我现在真的很想环游世界啊~

已经和朋友计划好了。
三月的时候，在我开学之前，
要玩得够够力，开开心心的。

我们要book trader hotel的房间，
风景很爽，环境一流的。
下午的时候，背着我的包包check in,
放下了我们的东西过后，
冲去游泳，然后冲凉。
order room service provide lunch~
晚上就和他们一起去sky bar~
累了就上回去酒店睡觉。
第二天check out后，去吃点心。
真的很cool~

想join我的朋友，打给我拉。
哈哈，很好玩的~

表姐叫我去星加坡找他，
可是我又答应了朋友去redang~
不知道去不去得逞。
我觉得我很忙，忙着玩~
我这种绝对不能说是废材，
因为过后我就要都回书了。
我要努力读书~哈哈

不管前面有什么障碍，
我相信我可以克服。
不管遇到什么困难，
我都不会轻易放弃。

为了临死前而想完成的东西而努力。
我觉得生活也是时候变得健康点比较好，
要早点睡觉。
good nite~

生活的体验

2010-01-23T10:15:00.000-08:00

其实我很感谢一些朋友。
他们叫我小心现在坐着的东西。
当然你们是没有错的。
我会很小心的。
谢谢你们的提醒。

其实我是一个很现实的人吗？
我真的不觉得咯。
不是我的要求高，
是社会给的要求很高。
如果今天我吃的一碗面，
只是值 1 sen~
那老板每个月给我一百块，我都满足。
可是，如果今天你去吃wong kok一餐都要三十块，
就算老板每个月给我两千块，我都觉得不够。

当然，我很认同的就是，
就算今天一个人很有钱，可以买到快乐吗？
我的答案是肯定不可以~
可是今天如果你没有钱的话，你会快乐吗？
我的答案是，一定不快乐~
除非今天我在街上随手拿一个包吃不给钱，
都不会给警察抓。

今天有什么东西不是关于到钱的？
我们小小就要被送去学校读书。
妈妈每一天叫我们把书读好，
就是要我们以后赚很多的钱。
不要和我说去学校真的是为了知识。
如果今天去学校的目的是为了知识的话，
那我们还记不记得我们form 1读过的东西是什么？
我们记不记得form 2学过什么数学公式？
我很肯定的说，我忘记了。
就算是为了知识，
那知识又是不是你以后赚钱的工具？
绝对是！

今天如果我的梦想是成为一个伟大的医生，
可是如果我去到医院上班，
医院不出薪水给我，我会继续做吗？
如果真的有人会继续白做，
恭喜你，你真的是很伟大。

很多人说，有钱又怎样？
有钱，你很多病痛，也不是一样？
真是奇怪的，今天穷人不会生病的哦？
我可以很肯定的说，
今天我有钱的话，我还有一个希望，
可以用我的钱去一好我的病。
可是如果今天我没有钱的话，
我就连一个希望都没有。
可以，去政府医院咯。
星期六车祸要去医院做手术时，
护士会和你说医生星期一才回来，
请你等到星期一。哈哈~

有的时候，我在学校读书，
听课，我会突然问我自己，
我到底在做什么？
我读书考试，到头来的目的是什么？
我真的不知道。

可是今天的我，找到了我想要的东西。
我希望可以从中实现到我的梦想。
我不能肯定我的未来很风光，
可是我只要告诉自己，
我真的有为了我的梦想而努力过。

每个人都希望可以实现他们自己的梦想。
有时候，有了一个很明确的目标，
却不知道从哪里开始。
今天突然和我朋友谈到，
一年前的我们，坐在一间餐厅里面，
不断地说着我们的未来，真的不知道怎样开始。
2010年将会是我人生的转折点。
我会因为得到我想要的东西，
而付出一切。

今年我的愿望很简单。
我希望我的家人都可以开开心心，平平安安的。
我身边的朋友也每天都开开心心。
如果真的实现了，你觉得我会不高兴吗？
我真的会很高兴得。
我们人类要求的东西，还不是那么简单而已。
如果世界上都没有敌人，也没有坏人，
我们的快乐，就是如此的简单。

在这个新的一年里，我还算是一张白纸。
我还有很多东西还没有学。
我的杯子，还是空空的。
希望到了年尾时，我的杯子是满满的。

李清芳，你最近还过得好吗？
突然很想问这一句。
因为我把你当成是我的好朋友。
对着了你一年，然后要我不见你一年。
很不习惯的说。

童话世界已经被现实世界打破了。
我们要为了自己的人生加油。
我希望每个人都能都达成梦想。
如果今天一个人没有梦想的话，
和一条咸鱼有什么分别？
这句是周星驰教我的。

原来我们平时日常生活做着的东西，
都很有可能使我们的优点。
今天一个废材每天都只会在家看电视，
都和有可能赢得astro办的电视剧大奖。
今天一个玩dota的废材，都很有可能成为dota世界冠军，
甚至自己发明游戏。
今天一个不孝子每一天都和妈妈顶嘴，
都有可能成为未来一个很厉害说话的律师。
就算不是一名律师，也可能是一个很有口才的人。

每个人都有他们不同的优点，
所以这个世界上是没有废材的。
你们相信今天一个乞丐可以变成一万富翁吗？
有这个可能的，虽然成功率很低。
因为世界上有几十亿人口，
就算每一个人给那个乞丐一块钱，
他都有可能成为百万富翁。哈哈

这是我一点点的分享。
也是我生活体验到的东西。

我期待的生活

2010-01-20T09:55:00.000-08:00

最近的英文都退步了。
因为，看不明的字，我懒惰去查。
以后要积极一点。
快要开始学院的生活了。
我现在真的真的很想拿起一本书来读。
看见身边的朋友都正在上课。
我却喜欢睡到几点就到几点。
想吃就吃，想玩就玩。
真是haiz~我不是在lan si 拉。
真的，我蛮像去学校上课的。
可是不是循人那种学校。

看回来，我真的是觉得自己和别人有一点分别。
这个世界的人，
很喜欢跟着别人所定下来的游戏窥则。
formula就是他们认为一定对的。
大部分人在做着的东西就叫做“正常”
小部分人做着的东西就叫做“不正常”。
读书读到博士，人家就说他聪明。
spm都没有的，人家就叫他废材。
噢卖尬。
很多人说55岁就退休。
是谁窥定55岁才能退休的？
他们都觉得到了那个年龄，才算得上有钱。
有！拿所谓的退休金咯。
有些人类说的话真的是让我觉得很好笑。

曾经有人和我说过，知识很重要。
可是你要懂得如何利用你所拥有的知识。
不能说读书多，出过国读书，读名校，就是人才。
不给今天有个天才很聪明只是没钱读名校，出国阿？
因为，今天的大学生，满街都是。
记录malaysia一年读accountant的人超过4000，
毕业出来的accountant有4000人，
4000人里面，有多少个会被公司入取？
就算一间公司今天要请十个accountant，
那平均这间公司每一年都要请10个大学生咯？
就是说十年后，这一间公司总共会有一百个大学生？
那多少个新水会是超过3000？
那如果今天每一间公司只需要一个accountant呢？
其他的不是hai lat~

文凭今天来讲，对我而言，是一个证明。
证明我是有读过这个课系的人。
证明我的知识到哪里。
可是文凭，绝对不会是我未来找饭吃的工具。
除非5年后政府窥定有文凭的人才能赚钱或打工。
哈哈，我当然一定会完成大学。
拿到了文凭后，给妈妈爽一下下，自己又爽一下下。
所以我会为了让妈妈爽一下下的moment而努力完成我的学业。

我很期待开学咯，不懂我的班又没有靓女叻？
我希望做我右边的像锺嘉欣，左边的像陈法拉，
前面的像hebe,后面的像徐若宣。
然后隔壁班又有一个很像taylor switf 的洋妞。
教我的老师要好像ayumi那么性感。
那时候我一定会很努力的读书。
我会天天和他们一起温习功课。
天天找老师教我补习。
妈妈一定很安慰~
双赢~！！！赢完！~~~

生活的细节

2010-01-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

今天晚上，很多影片突然不断的闪过。
让我想起很多。
如果可以重来，我会怎样？
如果可以重来，我会每一天都买toto,
因为我已经知道了星期一到星期五的toto会出什么。
BY miss sophia~ 其实是搞笑下罢了。
人生根本没得重来。
如果可以重来，人生就没有遗憾了。
我发觉很多时候，我都做错了决定，
I mean 以前啦。
这不能尼补的疤痕，我不再想~

今天有两位神秘嘉宾来我家接我出去。
其实是来我家捣乱一下才一起出去。

很多我公司的人今天都在wong kok.
其中包括我们的大佬 wilson~
其实我还蛮喜欢他的人~很不错。

朋友们，我真的很想帮你们。
你们今天成为我的team.
我不能不理你们而自己去enjoy的。
因为一个人吃苹果，是没有味道的。
如果能够和你们分享一粒苹果，
我会特别珍惜，苹果会特别甜。
总之我们要一起努力，还没有到最后一分钟，
千万不能放弃。因为我相信，好运在后来。
你们一定要为了自己的梦想而加油。
未来不是梦哦，是现实~一定能！

爱情~ 哈哈~
很久没有试过被爱和爱人的感觉了。
是怎样的huh?
心跳加速？我的心跳正常了很久哦。
我很想接吻，不过我要leng lui~
可以吗？哈哈。
也是开玩笑的~

明天我又要开始冲了~
为了我的未来而跑。
Mr. sathi 有一个值千七块的手表。
When I am sad,
I look at my watch,
then I very happy~

Money can buy happiness or not?
cannot~
But If today ur wallet is just a piece of paper,
will you happy?
sad for sure~
哈哈~

机会对一个人来说，真的还蛮重要的。
我不是一个天生聪明过人的人，
可是我是一个懂得把握机会的人。
什么是成功？成功就是经过所有失败后，
剩下来的最后一条路~ 成功！

我正在学习成为一个很有信心的人。

我希望可以在年轻的时候，
完成我所有的梦想。
我给自己的时间，
还有几年，就要到了。
不久的未来，我又会在那里？
我会做着什么？身边又有谁？

说真的，我很谢谢学校的几个朋友。
因为有他们，我才知道我还有人关心。
Ken Fong已经在学校消失了。
就连名字都想沙一样被风摧走了。

我真的应该让自己好好的休息一下。
把脚步放慢，在继续冲。
不过，不是现在。下个月吧。

经过了那么多，我真的累了。
三月想来个度假，去旅行。
我觉得很多人开始渐渐的忘记我了。
我也觉得，我渐渐地认识了很多人。
这就是关门后又再开门的不同？

睡觉前，那回忆不断的闪过，
真的很enjoy下的。
起码让我睡得安心~

am listening to teardrop on my guitar.
taylor swift~ I love~
She is awesome with her songs~
lyrics just like the feeling of mine right now.

老一句，
晚安地球人~

生活的起点

2010-01-13T10:25:00.000-08:00

不好意思地说，之前说了要换部落格，
可是我却没有这个时间。
突然心血来潮的，好想写写字。
迟点换了在告诉大家。

离开学校已经一段日子了。
我没有他们所说的舍不得。
却很开心的过着现在的生活。
可能我真的不喜欢那校园吧。
也可能因为没有一个真心的好朋友。
但我知道那里是有一班讲义气的朋友的。
哈哈~

现在的我算是踏入社会了吧。
但是我却不是过着打工的生活。
因为我已开始就没有想过打工。
我不喜欢时间被控制。
我希望能够自己掌控自己的生活。
我还没有完全做到，
可是我相信不久的以后，我能做到。

生日刚过了不久，很开心。
谢谢朋友们为我搞的生日派队。
是有感动到。但是，
也不喜欢去club的感觉。
虽然我已经正式十八。

最近我才发现，身边的朋友，
有一些，真得很奇怪。
每当我盖了电话，我都回自己偷笑。
算了吧~哈哈

2010年，会不会是我人生中的转折点？
我会怎样去完成这一年？
我不知道。我希望是开心的。

今天和miss lee谈了一下。
他的笑容还是不会变。
看到他就很亲切。
不知道我在他心中是一个怎样的学生叻。
突然和他聊起女朋友这家栋栋。
真是好笑，那来的女朋友？
感觉自己已经远离了那爱情的天空很久了。
一睡醒眼前的一切只有现实。
所谓的梦幻爱情什么的，
一切都消失在我的脑袋，不用想！

有时候一个人会太多东西，也未必是件好事。
适当的时候，应该装傻。
这样才能在这个社会生存。

一直以来，很想把我的生活调整整齐。
其实每一天都有这个机会的，
可是我的心总是还有一些东西还没完成。
等到这一切都完了，会是几时？
人总是一天拖一天，一年拖一年。

改变生活不是一件容易的事。
但是有决心，一点都不难。
可是我的决心又有多大？
又是问号？

希望我能从nobody to become somebody.
forget my age, if i want to success...
我会开心的。

money is not everything,
it just a only thing,
but everything is money~
我不想再向妈妈那零用钱了。
我那了妈妈四百块，妈妈就少了四百块用。
现在，我会想了，不会再乱花钱的。

冯家润

happy 2010

2010-01-01T08:31:00.000-08:00

Say hello to 2010 and say goodbye to 2009.
There were 4 gang of friends asked me to countdown together.
Haha, weird that I follow zuyin.
Was not a special countdown,
but I saw fireworks on my top first time.
With zuyin and my brother francis.

hehe, francis asked me countdown with him in singapore this year.
Ofcourse I can. promised.

This will be the last update.
I will change my blospot adress soon.
Just wait...busying recently...good luck.

happy new year

Perfect

2009-12-28T10:25:00.000-08:00

SCREAM OUT LOUD...!!!!
I SLEEP in the middle of the night almost all the days.

My Life is Not healthy enough...!
Fucking Bad habit should be change.

Black circle coming out eventually.
Body system is going to spoilt.
Body cell death~

Eyes are stimulated by the brightness of screen.
Tomorrow need to work...
Hope can achieve my bonanza dream...
GOD, I just want to tell you clearly.
I want to Hit at least three shares of Bonanza.
CAN YOU HEARD ME???
Then Please Help me to achieve my dream before my brithday reach.
Thank you...Love you, bless me, Good luck to me,
Dream come true, all the best...PERFECT...!!!
LOVE love LOVE!!!!!

2009-12-27T10:30:00.000-08:00

WELCOME WELCOME....
Very happy to join a new team.
im learning something new now.
and I'm not wasting my time now.

thanks for my team...
Okay, I wanna achieve my target, my dream.

Recently was very busy,
Tomorrow will goto maluri,
looking for my ms Fish, tall, thin, wear spec, long hair.
I mean friend la...

anyway, im very very tiring.
slp now and nite

Merry christmas

2009-12-24T11:46:00.001-08:00

Gen-X christmas party at 23....
non-stop games, foods and drinks.
Choos present, make new friends.

Gathering party, christmas eve steamboat party at 24,
it mean today....
All guys in the house with a little girl.
Funny action, funny things....
Beers, vomit, gambling...
Photo shooting, battle outside the house.
Music volume to max and so on....

Another gang of friends went to genting...
And Just whatever....

Berry and fish, Midvalley but we can't meet each other finally.
Tomorrow, church performance...
Am I still free to join?

Last but not least, My days was full.
And I will not be a rubbish anymore.
Is time to wake me up and stand on the war stage again.
To face all the challenges and obstacles in my life.
To break my own record...
Jump up to the sky and try to hold the star.
non-stop party is going to end,
after that is time to start my new journey.
not to waste any second to do thing which useless.

Merry christmas to all of you....
May have a nice day and a wonderful christmas.
Smile please....

business talk

2009-12-22T10:03:00.000-08:00

I went to a business presentation today.
I learn something new and the talk was veru sucessful.
All people hope to become financial free.
But people just need a chance.
Decision is by our own...

I will prove ken is can!
take care

2009-12-20T05:17:00.001-08:00

Friends...club...sunway...in the middle of the night.

ya...wanna correct my previous post's title...

is work or college...

Just now I ate sakae sushi...

actually the taste was just okay.

not special good taste..

before dinner,

I saw sunset,

i saw rainbow.

very good day..

good luck

work of college first?

2009-12-20T01:11:00.000-08:00

am very seldom to update my blog.
Because I dun feel like blogging.
okay, something about the pass,
I will not mention already.

The thing I wanna say which is,
I went to education fair yesterday,
and the consultant asked me to start college on january.
But my plan in the beginning is working first.
Actually I hope I can start my school life in the same time with my classmate.
Yes, we are not in the same school,
but I know that I am still a student.
dun matter is secondary or high school or college student...
It doesn't a matter.

I just want to find a job which can learn something new, fresh...
gain some experience, learn comunication skills.
ofcourse make some new friends also.

opps ya, Something is very very very important i need to mention it now,
yesterday I ate roti canai....ehh, it's not a normal roti canai....
got hawaii roti, roti seafood.....you heard it before?
it was a delicious roti canai i ever had. really~!!!
But i dunno where is the location....haha....take care guy.

Ian's brithday

2009-12-16T07:14:00.001-08:00

Wah , Ian's brithday party.
My friend's yong kang fetched me to his place.
at sedang, Like living in the forest.
up hill and down hill.

Our junior brother,
wau, what a great meeting?
we drank lot of beer, uncountable.
lim peh vomit huh...
and the second is wei ping.
Haha, we had a long time no see.
all of us were crazy in the house.
next time should come out gathering again.
that was the most coolest part in the party.
I enjoy. Estee was late, but it doesn matter.

the brithday present of his daddy and mummy,
one is iphone, another is oversea limited edition guitar.
I think all the people was jelous-ing. haha.
overnight at his place, cant sleep well.
anyway, thanks for the party.
I enjoy~
take care everyone~

Goodbye to you

2009-12-14T05:01:00.000-08:00

考完试了，我应该很开心的。
但是心里的思念，还是不断地让我想起一个人。
一切来得太快，也走得太快。
就连要走了，都来不及和你说声再见。
以后也许都没有机会再见面了。
我真得很不舍得~
我好像发了一场梦拟的。
我又从梦里醒过来了。
我没有什么要求，只求你能继续开心的过你的生活。
要加油，我真得很想你。

Haiz...Is time to plan my life,
everything pass in a moment,
with a blink of an eyes.

Tomorrow Will attend my friend's brithday party,
to meet some of my junior classmate.
After that, I need to work and wait for my result come out.
I will intake college as fast as I can.
If I really can do it, I will try my best to make it perfect.
I will change all my bad habits,
and try to be a better man.
I got a lot of friends, but I dun have a faithful friend.
everything will be change in the next year.
Is time to learn to do everthing for myself without people help.
anyway, Tsun jin is always my school.
They are always my classmate.
friends are always my friends.
and the fact will not be changed.

I can't breath smootly,
maybe I just need a great escape as Ian said.
Do everything for you,
You are the reason why im still alive.
You are my everything,
but I do know that im your nothing.
anyway, take care.
Goodbye to you~

Ken Fong

2009-12-09T10:30:00.000-08:00

Hey people...
Pls dun show off ur fucking expression infront of me.
I will not ask about ur feeling...

If you know my style, You should know,
you are doing something which I'm very hate~
feel like wanna vomit okay?

Bull shit..~ Pleas smile infront of me...
and friends, where the hell you guys been?
Spm is going to finish on next week...
let's hang out together okay?

Haiz, guys, i hate to do explaination.
I dun like to explain and repeat what i say before.
Understand? if those who don't understand what i say,
then U just don't need to understand.
Fuck off~
I wanna change my blogspot address later.
Here is so lame,
Next time I will post much much much photograph to share with all my visitor.
promise ya~
okay, peace! good nite 地球人~

2009-12-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

甘日去我亲戚的无知么烂结婚，好多人结婚，无知廷日系么也日子~
我diu diu你凸！
虽然过条友系我亲戚，但系我又需要diu下你。
无钱学么烂人结婚？D 也食好翅被狗食甘，
我diu diu你凸。
都无知点解过新娘会要嫁给你，
我涕过条新娘应该系好翅许小雯甘geh烂样geh。
我diu diu你凸。
我有你D甘geh亲戚，真系影衰晒我。
过架新郎车总系gen 2添。
我以后无钱，一定无会学9你去学其他人结婚。
结都甘geh烂样，我真系服都你五体头地。
廷日你geh wedding dinner,我真系无拦想出席，
我被面我老豆老母jek~ 我diu diu你。甘餐好翅食jor屎甘。
饮酒够咯~
我diu diu你凸。 ==

我真系无想diu 你 diu 都甘geh样。
但系，连我geh啊婆，阿妈都甘踩你。
如果我无踩你，我好对无住我啊妈geh....

其实，连你geh样系点，我都无知。
三十几岁，一点成就都无，
我系你，我不如死jor去算~！！！

I am so sorry...
I should say it out~
mummy, sorry er,
I am still ur good son....

fuck, I really dunno how to spend my time tomorrow,
still need to attend my relative's wedding dinner.
all is elderly, like going to 老人院~
what the eff~
don't have one guy same age with me or close to my age one~
BULL SHIT~
Hate it....extremely hate~

u see, because of the fucking guy,
make my blog appear so much of rude words.
If I didn't post at here, I think I will crazy soon~

owh my GOD~ what the hell~
He's really a naturally fucker~

december 3

2009-12-03T08:30:00.000-08:00

I broke record already~
I slept at 9 and woke up at 2 in the next day afternoon.
Very sweet man~
Holiday is the best for student~

Heard someone said that my blog is nice~
But why now lesser comment than before?
no one interested already?
or because I didn't post much photo as before?
hmm~ yea, my camera spoilt already what~

haha, pc fair coming in the next day.
will go there to see the price of camera first.
then I wanna buy a new one...
yea~ that's all~ good night~

December

2009-12-02T05:45:00.000-08:00

Science over~ owh yeah~
just like putting down a burden.
Hmm, I knew chinese is still here.
But still got 1 more week plus~

with a blink of an eyes,
December reach~
this is a party month~
christmast party,
new year party,
friend's brithday party,
and january~ MY brithday ...
I should treat myself good abit~

take your care~

step by step

2009-11-29T06:46:00.000-08:00

Guys, I have been a rubbish for 2 days already.
Because I did not touch the science book.
But I promise that I will study all before the science exam.

Am planning to move to another place...
Just want to change a new enviroment to start a new journey.
Maybe everything will be different.
But I found thing I really need in my life.
wondering? ya, I found my priority...
But I would not like to tell anyone first~
Until I really get it, I will share it to you guys.

Now my priority is spm..cert...result~
I believe, life has lots of tuning point.
maybe just a chance, everything will change to different.
I dunno how my life will goes in the next second,
but im looking forward...
take good care fren~

spaggio's bar @ pavilion

2009-11-26T05:30:00.000-08:00

yea Baby, I just came back from spaggio's bar @ Pavilion~
What a wonderful place to have alcohol and cooktail there~

Because of my previous post,
my friends called me to town for have some fun.
Found them in apple dream again,
they was having thier game and luckily when I reached,
the guy finished~

We called another friend in a sudden~
three guys in the house~ hehe~
Planned to get our meal when walking through the pathway..
We walked to the end of the pathway,
My eyes looking to the manu of the bar~
I finally asked them for alcohol inside the bar~
cuz the enviroment was great,
seem like sitting in a transparent room~
People arround us was all foriegner~
and a gang of britian was sitting next to us~
My friend still talked non sense with them~
and you should know, they are very friendly~

actually we did take some photograph at there~
But picture at my friend site~
will be post and share here soon...

hmm~ science, I will study it soon,
and ofcourse, I aim A ~ my target, Hope can achieve~

2009-11-25T08:42:00.000-08:00

My feeling right now is just same as the above picture~

Looking my friends going as far as the distance that you can't imagine.

Say hello to goodbye~

I'm alone now~

The time I need a friend support me,

I need a friend accompany me~

But who am I suppose to find?

and what am I suppose to do?

My Life is sucks~

What the hell?

Although I got my money,

I spend it alone in a cafe.

Sometime I will hope to be a kampung boy,

At least I could go out and play with all kids~

I got a wonderful childhood~

But now, I got nothing,

listening to the song...Perfect.

My target is very simple only,

Why so hard to achieve?

Who can tell me the reason?

If My life is full of happiness~

I'm willing to die in 2012

Life goes bored~

2009-11-25T03:42:00.000-08:00

My Life Is bored~

Who can rescue me from the boredom?

I wanna I wanna I wanna~

Party

Travel

Gathering

Owh My god~

I am not saitfied the life I'm doing right now.

KilL ME ~~~

non-stop on study

2009-11-23T06:56:00.000-08:00

Exam-ing~

Do you feel nervous~

NoN-stop on study~

Until I can't breath~

a day~

2009-11-20T07:28:00.000-08:00

Hello guys~ My enrichment day~
It was so full to me~
I woke up in the early morning~
arlam Keep distubing my sleeping time~
Owh~ But I must wake up~
I had dated qing fang to starbucks for doing revision of math~

Hehe~ then My friend came starbucks met me~
He's brithday boy today~
I accompany qing fang to LRT station,
then walked to Paviliong from ts with my fren~

Two of my another fren was waiting us there~
we went to wong kok, Just for the Big big milk coffee~
Finished our lunch then went shopping~
hehe~ Friends wanted buy new thing to change his look and style~
complete our shopping session~
Rush to lesure mall By bus~

First I went to my friend home to wait him take his bath,
Then walked out to get my another meal~
planned to Pool again~
Have a long time didn't touch the pool table already~
All skill have been forgotten~
I'm the losser in the end~

Back his home again and helped him wax his clurly hair~
wah~ another brian~ Is cooler than before~
They planned to clubbing tonight~
Ofcourse, Im the one who don't ever join them to this kind of party~
Because Still spm, My heart will feel guilty if go this kind of place~

Then return to lesure mall again~
wau, I saw many gang of my friends~
Cause today there got pasar malam~
wau, feel so good~
And I visited my teacher a while in the tuition center.
hmm~ she had helped me check my rumusan~
all the sentence I underline she said is correct~
haha~ very happy nie~

After an hour passed, Car reached,
and they ready to go their destination~
Brian came and fetch me home~
that's all~

Tomorrow, going to do revision again with my primary schoolmate~
hmm~ I'm not confidence in math what,
that's why I need fren help~
Good night everybody~

Last, wish you happy brithday~ Dainer~
Hope you all the best~
take care~ ^^

Owh MY GOD

2009-11-19T04:49:00.000-08:00

What the hell of me today?
My English essay~
I did not see the title with detail and carefully~
There is a Big mistake I took~!
Im feeling afraid~ Will luck come true soon?
OWH NO~
everyone said english was very easy~
ya, I knew it~ Paper 2 was very easy~
I think My essay can affect my total marks~
Although paper 2 is all correct~
But i know this is impossible~

I should'nt think so much and take it so pressure already~
There are only four subject is going to take~
I should do all my best and pay all my effort on it~
I will not make any MISTAKE again in my exam~
I strongly SAY it to myself~
YOU HAVE NO MORE CHANCE~

感恩的心~

2009-11-16T04:30:00.000-08:00

我曾停留过的地方~
今天是我补习国文的最后一天了。
我是十月才报名的。
因为当时我很怕国文会不及格，
所以就报名了。
短短的几个星期，我真的很用心的上老师课。
是真的学到很多东西。
一些我以往都不想看的国文字，
我慢慢的，从不明白，变得大概都明白。
不可否认的，我的却是进步了。

后天就是那最重要的国文考试了。
它决定了我的未来。
我不希望自己会拿不到文凭。
虽然我国文不好，我不能辜负老师对我的期望。
我很想让全世界知道，
就算我是迟报名，我也可以考好。

今天最后一天了，补习中心的人都对我不错。
不会很凶，生病了也会问候几句。
是有点被感动的说~ 很开心~
以后不知道还有没有机会见面。
虽然只在家里附近，可是距离却被我想象的很远。
这一切的一切，应该就此画上了句点。

我不知道我走的下一步，又会有什么惊喜，
但我却很期待~
虽然身边没有一个很好的知己朋友。
独处的完成我的旅程。
那美好的天空，也许已经在前方等待着我的到来。

在此，谢谢miss LEE 感恩的心。

那永远都那么尊重你的学生，ken~^^

Revision

2009-11-15T07:55:00.000-08:00

Today, a very healthy day~
Ian overnight in my house for 2 days.
we woke up pretty early in the morning.
Then asked my father fetch us to maluri,
met up Ian's classmate and start our revision together.
Very good, something I dun understand can ask immediatly.

We change almost 3 enviroment to do our revision.
10 until 6, my parent then came to fetch us.

The stupid, stop revision already!
Now sleeping on my bed.
Covering his whole body by my blanket.~
wei, im still active now...dun feel like wanna slp.
wake him up , dun care me...~

Okay...haha

结束我五年校园生活的最后一天。

2009-11-14T05:14:00.000-08:00

本以为可以穿着本校的校服出席最后的一天。
但是今天并不是所谓的结业式。
却是那联课的颁奖典礼。
学生为了配合这颁奖典礼，穿上了其学会的会服。

今天早上的空气特别新鲜。
这可能是心理因素所造成的吧。
在那老地方，和朋友们一同吃早餐。
时间没有平时的久。
大家都赶着回学校准备。

回到班上，照常的，老师点名。
但不是我们自班的班导师。
看见学生们都走小楼排队了。
我也不例外的跟在后头。
那拥挤的楼梯，花了我们一点的时间，
才小到去排球场集合。

我自以为礼堂已经排好了椅子让学生们坐，
结果是，同学们，排排坐，坐地上。
操他学校的妈~
学校又再次展现他们有脑的表现。
坐在地上，没得靠，想睡也睡不了。

来了来了~他来了~
看见校长走向麦克风的方向，
我的心情就如世界大战要来临拟。
那永远打不完的战争~
校长那永远停不了口得致词。
贵校的校长出了名，是八独中里最长气的校长。
我们早在五年前刚进入循中时，见识过他的威力。
果然不是浪得虚名。

在那梦梦糊糊中，听见了学生们的掌声。
我的灵魂回归身体了~
顶不顺的颁奖典礼，终于在两个小时后过去了。
我们学生就回到自己班上，等老师发成绩单。
哈哈，成绩不好，却很期待看见成绩单。

五年了，眨眼间，真的五年就这样过去了~
那时间的速度，有比光来得更快吗？
三年的初中生活，两年的高中生活。
就在此画上了一个最完美的句号。
今天就这样结束了我五年的中学生涯。
同学们，我们都在同一个环境共同度过了五年的时光。

我庆幸自己曾是循中儿女。
我没有在此学校毕业，人生总是有个遗憾。
但决定了的事，我不会再回头望。
继续到明年毕业的同学们，
你们一定要加油~ 快快乐乐的，
团结的一起走完最后的一年。
路上少了我，其实还不算什么。

我不知道同学们会不会舍不得我，
但是我能绝对确定，我舍不得你们。
明年的一切都会随着环境而改变。
我们彼此之间，也少了一个话题。
就是校园生活的话题~

我的班，c5,c4~
你们~

前进吧，循中！

。

Berry's ART

2009-11-13T05:48:00.000-08:00

Photo shooting, @ adonis~

My very first experience.

For being a model one day.

it took me long time to complete the mission.

But I enjoy...here's some photo showing.

the another me after make up~

Evil~

Before~

process~

Shooting~

Evil expression~

I felt scared to myself...

Actually is my fren berry called me to do that.

She is a very nice person.

Ofcourse, she is my best friend too.

Tmr is her brithday.

I promised to buy roses for her brithday long time ago.

But I broke my promise, cuz i forget already.

anyway, here to wish you have a wonderful brithday.

Your lovely brother~ Ken~ haha

Who care?

2009-11-11T08:48:00.000-08:00

Everytime say "who care", "no care", "don't care"~
Am I really can do it?
I usually do something which destroy my self image.
And finally I will throw out some words,"who care?"
and I tell myself..."whatever"...
Then? how do you guys look at me?
a gangster? a bad student?
and actually i wanna say is...im still good.
im still me, and bad attiude is to present to bad people.
ofcourse, for someone I care...i will treat them well.
even some good person in my life...
But bad guy make me angry,
I can't stand about it...
This is my personality...
if you wanna friend with me, pls accept my personality.
and I will not hurt my friends.....
I just will make my friends smile~
really~ ^^

2009-11-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

I don't know what is going on actually...
Hmm~ whatever how you guys look at me.
I am still me...it is not necessary to do explaination.

I hate people scold me on the net...
I enjoy people scold me infront of me...
Feel is different man~ do you know?

Just know I had typed a very long article in chinese,
But I delete already...
Because I do not want to let people know what's on my mind.
If you don't know me...then you can no need understand me.
What you think and what you do.
I don't CARE!

People should know,
If you laugh, whole world will laugh together with you.
If you cry, YOU cry alone....
I feel guilty, But am i right?
I don't even lie anyone before...
You are always my best friend...ever and forever~
Don't think you are strong...and don't hide ur weakness.
tell me all what in your heart as you can....
I will not understand very detail...

2009-11-09T03:47:00.000-08:00

Go school for nothing!

make me feel like a rubbish while staying in school...

agree?? im the first to say yes!

HAHA, I like the movie which chinese teacher played in the classroom today.

Very interesting...I don't know what it name...

2009-11-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

Woke me up in the early morning...
Who is that???
Yi hua came my house with lot of note.
Because we plan to do revision.
Actually I need her help in malay and moral format only.
She came my house to watch TV only...
What the hell of her???
But it doesn't matter~
at least I got some note from her.

I did being a boss and a rich man for a few min when walking to lesure mall.
Funny, cuz the girl was handing many books~
and I throw my file to her...
I asked, do we seem like a boss and a assistant.??
She answered, ya...Look like real...
cuz im wearing a coller shirt....like Polo golf club' shirt.
Going to a golf club for a big big project....
She told me lot of non sense...
I said, U are fire...take ur salary from account department,
and u can leave now....!!! hahaha....
funny......just a funny game on the way to bus stop while we were boring.
She return home at 2 in the afternoon....
and ofcourse, I got my lunch with my another bunch of friends.

Family gathering

2009-11-06T07:16:00.000-08:00

I got a square meal with my big big family just now.
One of my relative brithday.....
We celebrated in a chinese restorant near by time square.
Actually I'm not interested on this kind of family gathering.
Because u need to call someone who older than you,
in the same time, I was confusing about the relation ship,
What should I call them? uncle? aunt? jiu jiu....or what?
confuse~

two of my cousin sister has their children already.
Wau, so fast become a mother of a kid..
Last time I was the youngest, and everyone wanted to hug me.
Now, all go and hug another baby boy or baby girl already.
I'm old now~ haha...~
With a blink of an eye, I grow up so fast already.

Dissapointed thing is,
my another two best fren cousin didn't attend the dinner.
Make me felt boring and doing ntg there.
My mum keep calling me to sing a song to everyone,
cuz the room got KTV too.~
then I just sang one song to all of them....
ofcourse, everyone clap their hand....haha.
I'm not bad right?

My another cousin sister who stay in klawang did not attend,
her mother told me that she need to go tuition.
Just make me feel guity....So hardworking.
how about me?
still blogging hur?
anyway, I have a wonderful night with my family...~
Thanks for the dinner~

Artist gathering~

2009-11-04T05:18:00.000-08:00

For friends who like dancing art, singing art, band art, drama art, magic and etc...
Lpmsms is going to held an artist party at Wisma ocm.
at November 14....

This party is just a simple, easy and small for "artist" to meet up each and sharing.
Sharing with their experience....and what they learn before.
Can make friends with same interesting.
Do you guys know what is art?
till now, im still wondering on this topic.

Friends called me to join this event....
event is organize by chong hua high school's student.
It is a precious chance...

But you guys would know,
November 14, ...Spm at nov 18.
I'm craving for it....
Should I go?
Or i may stay back home to wait my exam first?
I need some comment....

A chance to let me dance again.
A Last more chance to let me gain better result.
Wondering~
I think I shouldn't go...is it?
Next time lor...~ is it? haha...whatever

Ya, if someone who interested on this event,
You can view this web to get more information.
For full event details...
www.lpmsms.blogspot.com

When darkness turn to light

2009-11-02T05:17:00.000-08:00

Light illuminate My life~

Maybe Only a small bulb.

But without it, everything is dark.

When darkness turn to light,

We should try to cherish.

Sometimes I will desorientation.

Who would like to be my little bulb?

To illuminate my way, even my future?

Or the person has not appear yet~

Now I'm listening to High school musical's songs.

Their songs is very nice.

Once I was not interested in this Movie,

But since teacher played this movie in the class,

I have no idea to reject it.

Not the details of the movie nice,

actually is just the music nice,

story is okay too.

Take care

Midnight

2009-10-31T11:02:00.000-07:00

Now is 2.2oam...
I just came back home from outside.
Planned to BBQ at yi tian house,
But because of the little rain...
Finally cancel....

Then we wait them at apple dream again.
Waste me lot of time.
I hate facing games for hours goes...

They all arrived at 11.00...
really what the hell~
Then all guys talking in the mamak store.
Lot of guys....
I think almost all is our tsun jin's mate in the area.
Chit chat for 2 hours.....
They wanted to play until next morning...
Sorry, I can't make it with you guys.
Actually I wanted to pool in the begining.
But they rejected my idea...
after tea session, another guys reached,
they then said to pool again....
No more mood for it...
Mummy keep calling to my phone.
I better go home earlier.

Owh, spm near, I dun even get study today.
Go hit the wall man....

Ya, friend list...
dainer, Fu, Wei quan, wei feng, yi tian,
zhi yang, Kai di, and ......dunno name...

Another gang, not going with us...
But met up in the same area....
Loong ann, xing guo, yong ping,
wu Hai....

The last gang who join us....
Jia jun and one dunno who...
haha...

Just list for fun....ntg do...
Ya, I know im lame....
If lame, u can close this profil now..
HAHAHA.....

Cassie, I knew you are unhappy,
Don't cry again....
is not worth it....
Tell me everything as you can...
I will be a very good listener to heard ur story.
If this can make you happy,
I do.....

Hey everyone....is time to sleep....
Tomorrow will be a good day...
here to wish everyone have a lucky day.
Good night.

I gotta feeling....exam><

2009-10-30T08:31:00.000-07:00

I should study harder for my coming exam.
Serious ! Not play play ~
I will Not go out with friends before SPM end.
Because I would know that I will be very free after exam,
Thus, why now Don't I keep on study first?
isn't ?

But I need some friends help.
Cuz you guys know...
My malay is super duper poor.

I can't wait until exam finish.
But I do not hope that exam coming so fast.

sick sick

2009-10-27T05:11:00.000-07:00

Hmm, I had absent to school again.
I think there sure have somebody thought that im lazy.
guys, I swear im really sick today.
Even can't get up from the bed.

But now I feel alright.
I'm okay and tmr can continue to school.
Actually I don't understand go school for what?
No classes, no teaching.
students sleep, teacher do their own things.
What the hell???

last but not least...
Somebody said i'm rude...IN MSN.
other I don't care....
anyway, here to say sry if make u feel uncomfortable.
I will try to be a gd person...haha

Wake me up when october end.

2009-10-25T07:30:00.000-07:00

I'm coughing now.
After fever, then now coughing.
my body is really weak.
haha, but im strong!
No worry!!!

Today is the last day of holiday.
Tomorrow need to return back to my fucking school.
Really don't know can do what tomorrow.
Exam ended, teacher stop teaching,
except Spm subject.

October is going to end.
Next month is going to take SPM exam.
Pls wake me up...
No more out going, just stay back home,
and......study guaaaaaa...
Haiz, boring.......
here wish all spm student can take their dream result.
Ofcourse me too.

Monday again....time passed fast as wind.
alright....just continue our Life.
Here we GOOoooooooooooooooooo

Love

2009-10-24T10:25:00.000-07:00

What is Love?
Love is....

谈恋爱就如吃口香糖。
刚刚进入嘴里时，
很有味道。
咬久了，就会开始慢慢变淡。
然后就把他吐出来。
可是，吐出来后，
口里还有那个味道。

By ~ Brian.....

Go home use listering wash ur mouth lor....

Sick

2009-10-24T02:31:00.000-07:00

OMG,
I am fever now.
feel like wanna sleep,
but I had already slp for 12 hours.

ergh, please leh,
I need a healthy life,
why I look so weak?

D.I.U

2009-10-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

Day passed,
I did nothing~
Talked non sense with friends.

Dinner with brian,
He still missing his girl friend.
Please break up and forget her.
No talk, no sms, no contact, no memory.
All shoud be delete NOW.
Love is not your all man!

Haiz, Not in mood.
Day after day,
really dunno what I can do for my life.

I need LMF's songs now!
What the Fuck
我吊你都肿得！
你地话得无得？

我无吊你无好以为自己好懒型，
吊那星，
冚家拎。

无好话我教坏思佬，
你得搬aunty,
无好炒祸我给Party.
冷静地~

Hong kong rapper~
You are sucker.
I hate smoker,
Don't take out ur lighter,
and dun be a sucker.
should slp earlier,
and see you later!

errr~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tomorrow gonna be a good day.
Very welcome to my life.
come on~

No morning call

2009-10-21T10:35:00.000-07:00

Hmm, tomorrow is holiday, until next monday.
Yes, no need go school to do lame things.
can sleep until whenever I want.
No more morning call to disturb my sleeping time.

Recently I'm listening to face drop, sean kingston.
what's a nice song?
I really love it, it make me feel like out of stress and pressure.
But I hate kingston don't sing clearly.
if I didn't see the lyrics, I really dunno what is he singing.
But i think it is his style....

Tomorrow morning, stupid yi hua is going to come my place.
Make me need to wake up and open door for her.
But she promised will treat me tea in the afternoon.
she told me "tea only mah"....not that expensive.
ya, but she misunderstand my meaning.
I'm going to order starbucks coffee...
is still okay lar, under 15 ringgit only.
I think she still can pay the bill...hahas.

what the eff man,
Today P5F students got their BI papers.
I bet the teacher don't know how to mark our paper.
I use many of beautiful sentence taough by my tuition teacher,
I memorized all and used it on my BI essay,
she asked me back, what's the meaning?
is it celebrated depavalii too high already,
no more spirit to mark our essay?
Then called us passup the papers and remark it again.
well, thanks a lot,
and actually, I don't need it....
I promised will do best in spm.
I hate JE center la,
when you see my face, hope it gives you hell!
One class one teacher like last time then really enough already.
this call what? duo lan yeh
seperate us to different class room for what?
okay, now on, i will not see it so crucial.
just take it easy, and forget what is JE.
thank you~

opps, 2 am already, is time to bed now.
g-g-gud nite everybody.

beautiful life

2009-10-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

Moko photography.

I love it~

What matter is going to happen tmr?

I hope it will be something happy.

I'm really stepping away from happiness.

a little soul with a body,

no people wanna care.

Do you know why I like photography?

Because time will always stop in the beautiful moment.

ever and forever!

If life as a nice picture,

how good it will be?

I just want to remember all of my happiness,

and delete all the sadness as delete worst pic from camera.

How life goes?

我的“天”

2009-10-17T13:31:00.001-07:00

今天的心情，很复杂。
恩，要怎样形容呢？
我也不会说，不如你们和我说吧？

今天是我第一天，
在大同饮食集团上班，
下午时，换上了一件白色的formal衣。
穿上黑色的西裤，再把我那皮鞋拿出来。
整理好一切，就上班了。

哈哈，好象是酱。
其实我只是，
在大同以食集团旗下的一间分行的酒楼，
做一个小小的waiter，帮人家打工。

我是被朋友拉去的，
去之前，和朋友喝了一下茶，
然后才去的。
去到那儿，看见一大般。。。没有样子的
打工仔。
哈哈，我也不想说到他们这样。
谁叫他们点我做这样做那样。
才拿那三十三块的薪水，
竟然要我做到狗都不如一样。

其实，今天是做结婚晚宴。
哇，新娘和新郎好看到。
不过还是祝你们新婚愉快啦。

收工时，一个金毛光头仔，
一直爆粗的叫我做好来，
不要那么斯文，那些碟不会痛的。
可是，会打烂勒。
果然是没读书，每科学头脑，
应该是说，不会用头脑的家伙。
结果，害到我真的打破了一个碟。
幸好没扣薪水，要不然就到我爆粗了。

我的partner是一个form 4的part timer。
他不断的骂我，看见他那低低地的骂人样子，
搞到我想生气也生气不出，还我一直在笑他。
拜托，弟弟~不要一直马哥哥啦。
你不适合。

我在这，劝大家，绝对不要去大同吃早餐！！
因为你的早餐，可能会有鱼翅或薄荷饭的味道。
因为那些人洗碗是。。碗有点到水，就算是洗过的啦。
是不是很干净？
害我要去消毒我自己的手。
允许我一句，他妈的！！！

在哪里，我和我的朋友都遇见了另一个循人毕业生。
蛮帅气的。他竟然也会做这种工。
过后我们还去喝茶呢。
有说有笑的，笑刚刚那些人。
他说觉得心里不平衡，
被一些学历低过他的人骂他和点他做东西。
很有同感，我还被印尼人点啊，
看看，我的肤色白过你，你才是做奴隶的最家人选好么？
我不是，看清楚！

学哥送我回到家门口，
很不错的一个好人。
读书好，样子好，人品更好。

今天的薪水，我刚刚回家之前，
用光啦，真的不懂做来是为了什么。
我的一个晚餐，都不够我吃啊。
真的好像是为了晚餐而打工！
回家吃妈妈煮的不是更好！！！
他就像一间监牢，我一走是不再回头的。

回到家时，小妹以更信息，
他的私人电话号码，给了我。
哈哈，有点奇怪。
可是，应该是我误会了吧？
没关系，朋友就对了。

和家人说了一大堆废话过后，
我就一个人在客厅看那个什么败大女王。
其实那个"大"的右上角是有一个点的，
不好意思的说，本人不知道pin yin。

我不算是喜欢偶像剧的人。
可是有时看看，还蛮不错，
因为看见戏里的情节，
让我脱离了现实生活。
简单，因为偶像剧就是一个字“夸”。
男的永远是最帅最有钱，
女的永远是脆弱无比的公主。
顶不顺，不过抱着无知的心情去看，
是蛮有趣的啦。
男的那种把妹技巧，
如果用在真实生活，
应该会被人觉得LAN酷和型。
不过偶像剧也有它的优点，
就是，男帅女美，歌又好听。

今天算不算是有人关心我呢？
我期待被关心的那一天。

清芳现在在老家，
庆祝着她的depavali...hahahaha

我觉得考试越来越近了，
是时候后寻找动力，
让我有发愤图强的感觉，
去完成这一项重大的考试。
加油。。睡咯~ 晚安

the night

2009-10-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

I didn't meant to go school today.
But, the stupid pc test.
I must go to school for taking this test.
Omg, It was really really bored in the class.

But it was fun while I reach back home.
Lot of friends msg me to go out.
Today lesure mall got pasar malam.
I had joined 4 batch of friends.

First, zu yin called me first .
then we met each other outside watson,
went for tea session in the new old town.

whye and fu was late,
second round we went to mamak store for dinner.

third round, yi hua called, hun hong and pei yin at there also.
we went yam cha again.

last, joyyie suddenly msg me.
omg, yam cha again.
my stomach can't stand any water already.
STOP it!

Should rush back home earlier.
but cool, first time join 4 batch of friends in a night.
tmr will be going out with friends again.
hehe, exam just over mar,
let me get some fun first,
then only continue my rivision of spm.

一个人的行李

2009-10-15T02:29:00.000-07:00

今天，真的难以形容我的心情。
那个，你概然不相信我，那我无言。
我当你是我小学朋友，真的很希望你能改变。
不过我从没介意过你。
总之，你开心就好。
我祝福你们可以过得幸福。
believe的中间，永远都藏着一个lie。
无所谓。

今天的簿记考试，应该很难及格吧。
怪我没尽力咯。

考试后，找不到清芳了。
老师一个一个收卷子，
害到我们迟出。
结果，清芳没等我，走了。

我驾车回去，和朋友吃了早餐，
我就一个人回家去。
睡了一个午觉。
被我爸爸吵醒了。
叫我开门给他。
被逼起床。

爸爸换了工作了。
开心的是，他那辆公司的烂车还给公司了。
爸爸把我们家的超帅气车，驾回来了。
他会到我们的家了。

然后，家人一个两个都出去吃晚餐。
我一个人，爸爸叫我自己出去吃。
唉，很孤单勒。为什么的？
想拿起手机找朋友。
却没有人选。
昨天来电的那位，他心情好了。
我不想打扰他了。
可是现在，到我心情差了。

为什么朋友不开心时，我永远第一个到。
而到我不开心时，却不敢找他们。

刚刚和我最敬爱的马老师，
好像有点吵架。
如果说错什么，对不起。
我想，你也不会再想教我功课了吧。
那SPM就靠我自己吧。

今天的总结，孤单，不被信赖，不开心。
算了。
我一个人在广场毫无目的地的绕了几圈，
却不知道自己该去哪里。
现在，我就在潭茶屋一个人的写部落。
吃晚餐。
等下，真的不知该去哪里。

又再一次遇到温力明了，
他也是一个人坐着喝茶。

去了楼台，一个人看这焦赖的夜景。
，没什么美，而且一个人，
更是没有感觉的说。
一切到此结束吧。
该回家了

来电，突然心血来潮。

2009-10-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

哇塞，我觉得我真不定性啊。

今天下午睡午觉，刚刚被上面这条水的来电吵醒。

他杀出一句，“我很想喝酒”。

可怜又很有中气地说，陪我。

我突然心软了起来，

想说，OK啊。

怎么搞的？明天簿记考试哦。

还想做出那么愚蠢的决定？

最后，我决定了，不陪他。

哈哈

就抛弃他一天。

我还算有够老友吧。

为什么就不能迟多一天才不开心呢？

我明天正式考完试哦！

哈哈

有够开心的。

等下该开始做做几题簿记了。

虽然不是很会，

可是，不要死到惨惨就OK。

我唯一上课的节来的。

后悔不KEEP着做练习。

怪我咯笨！

~~~~~~

今天上fACEBOOK时，

测测看我今天的运气。

只有十一分哦。

结果，真的有不好的事情发生了。

原来我在学校的评价是如此的差劲。

做人真难，

要怎样才能让每个人都喜欢？

我想这是我一辈子要学的学问。

2009-10-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

The air today was fresh.

Woke up in the early morning,

Took a bath and wash my face.

Playing jay chow's song and choose shirt to wear.

Settle up all things then went to lesure mall find my friends.

There has open a new old town coffee.

We met each other at there.

Many friends follow behind.

We chat a lot and talked something funny there.

Then, after the bill came out.

I was shock...RM41.

I was wondering how much should i pay.

cuz feng them dun have enough money.

so I have no idea and treat them for one time lor.

My wallet had burn a big hole.

Anyway, happy was our priority.

money is second.

haha~

then do some rivision in starbucks.

I have done one question of book keeping.

praise me faster...faster!!!

haha....that's all of the story today.

2009-10-11T05:09:00.000-07:00

wah wah wah~
a lot of plan appear in my brain....
get get get get what I say?
you know what I say say?
party everyday, p-p-p-party everyday.
haha~

Faster finish exam....faster study finish.
then we must party everyday.
erm~ wau, now I already feel very excited.
Not in mood to study my business.
but but but, I sure will complete it,
before I go school in the early morning.

hmm~ after book keeping exam,
then we can get a short rest,
then prepare to face the stupid SPM.....
after SPM, then then then~~~~
fly to the sky.....~~~bla bla bla....
crazy

exam jitter

2009-10-09T09:28:00.000-07:00

Today, is the first examination day.
This time, I have overall give up.
I'm so sorry...

My Math(chinese)...
friends said it was very easy.
Ya, exactly...
But I really don't know...
thanks for my math teacher.
I didn't take tuition outside.
That's the reason why...

Actually, the examination of this time is already not crucial for me.

Because my final decision is take spm and leave.

My primary schoolmate told me that they will go with spm too.

Erm, exam with broken heart.

Friends said, they still wanted to take good result,

although leave with spm.

erm, Not bad....ofcourse it is good.

but I still do my best in some subject which im ability to memorize.

such as history, business and Book keeping.

Promise will fight until the war of exam finish.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HeHe, funny man.

This afternoon I slept until nine,

When I wake up, I thought is time to school.

I thought just now is morning.

I was so bler man~

Until my friends called me to PM I then know it is night.

what the hell am I...

still dreaming~

But I really very enjoy my sleeping time just now.

Dream something very interesting,

but , forget already.

hahas.

cassie, sorry , I broke my promise, just forgive me!

Sleep in the night.

2009-10-07T11:26:00.000-07:00

Now is 2:29 am...
I feel very very tired,
but I don't feel like wanna sleep.

Listening soft music in the silent night.
I got a feeling but I don't know how to express.
It is like very comfortable,
and yet it's like very lonely...

hmm~ I really enjoy the moment like now.

No excessive noise disturb me,

because everybody are sleeping.

very very comfortable.

I hope time can stop in this moment,

I'm tired.

Tired with family, friends, study, future and love.

I want to live in my dream,

and don't wake me up.

I ask myself many times,

When, I can smile without fake?

Where is the person can make me smile without fake?

am I still finding you?

or, im forever lonely...

I don't want to work everyday...

Just wanna sleep...and sleep....

I hate every morning when I wake up.

I'm not energize to continue my life.

I usually late to bed is because,

I scard don't know what can do in the next morning.

No more target lah,

achieve what???

It ends tonight.

Short break

2009-10-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

Nice picture...I took in the moment.

Have a short tea session with Ian tan just right after school.
We got back to my home first,
the weather in this afternoon was extreamely hot.
Both of us was wet with sweat.

Actually It is a rare opportunity for us,
because the place we live are very far from each other.

Our style is very match,
chatting on a same topic and present lot of same ideas.
Best friend is actually come from this.

Then, he took bus to Lrt and wait for her mother fetch,
and me, went back home with my feet.
That's the story of mine today.

SIENZ AR~

2009-10-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

Hehe, just came back from lesure mall.
Today I have received some of the subject's exam paper.
All are just like BULL SHIT.
Haiz~ really don't know how to do.

Just gathering with friends at wong kok.

Then michelle sent me a msg called me look behind,

I saw her...we have chatted something about study.

She told me that she will teach me malay until my SPM get pass.

You ar, please don't singalingam me ar.

Don't play play girl.

Ya, history exam will be start on this friday,

I haven't do any preparation for it yet.

I will drunk after I see all words on the paper.

So many chinese words must put inside into my brain.

really owh my fucking godness.

Luckily I didn't choose eco,

it will be take in the same day with history.

Faster over man,

I want play, don't want face books anymore.

I really will tear all the books after SPM.

BULL YOU SHIT....GET HELL.

SIENZ AR~~~

three S for you....Super Siens and Stress!!!

Disorientation

2009-10-04T08:31:00.000-07:00

I will be grateful for every moment I have.

Don't matter how life goes,

I will be brave to face all the challenges.

Examination just ended, but another examination is coming soon.

What can you imagine?

Life make me tired.

I have already disorientation.

mid autumn festival

2009-10-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

Clubbing tonight?
Would you like to go with me.
Nop, I think It might be make it at december.
Now is still not the right time for us to have fun.
Money couldn't come out as when I need.
It need time.
and the most important thing is exam now.
might plan to genting after SPM over.
"Talking with my friends"

Tonight is legally mid autumn festival.

I couldn't see anyone celebrating for this festival.

It has been forget by chinese since we grew up and don't play for candle.

But moon cakes is still selling in the society.

Luckily this product still alive.

But all things has been change.

Just came back from lesure mall.

Friends waiting for friends fetch.

I just have a tea session with them a while.

They keep persuading me to clubbing...

hehe, why I got such friends?

My final desicion is go back home.

They have no idea...and I dont care what they said.

I just hope that they will not happen anything bad.

such as block by police.

I really can't save u out from police station.

haha......

it just a joke, dun be serious at all man.

have a fun night guys.

take care.....

moon KICK ...FAT-Teeth-World eve

2009-10-02T07:37:00.000-07:00

HAHHAX, love this picture so much...
Don't know, it just " I gotta feeling" ...
Tomorrow night gonna be a good night...
Moon might be particularly bright.
Moon festival, that's why I say!

Today, what a meaningless yet fun day!

How lucky am I today?

Woke up almost 12 something.

mammy called heat up the food before eat.

But, in the moment I want to eat, power cut without warning.

thank you god....

call my friends immediately, went to mcdonald.

They have their Dota game again,

and I play my own game also.

hehe, super passion for GTA.

passed all the missions...hehe.

Now I just can't wait for the game.

I wanna play...~~~~~

Then they decided to wong kok again.

haiz, what a boring place???

asked to clubbing by friends,

but sorry, not interested....

Next time ler okay?

hehe~~~~

How life goes???

what will happen tmr?

erm, study again....

SiaOOOO ar~~~~

Bull shit!!!!!

QING FANG, Lets go fun....

hihi, we eat moon cake hur?

haha

Additional words...I saw fireworks just now...hehe...

SO lame hor? sorry la...

someone is celebrating now....but why me look so lonely??

what a matter?

bless me

2009-09-30T03:38:00.000-07:00

Today is english exam.
essay tittle is easy as a peice of cake.
Do not hope broken english come out from my writting.
But the summary is hard.
I spend almost half an hour to read repeat over and over.
Don't think it can pass.

I'm moody now,

on the way to downstairs, I saw cikgu...

she told me that my BM is very low marks.

haiz, but I did my best already.

my malay is poor, and it is fact.

I'm worrying about spm malay.

Teacher mar, must help me.

save me out from hardship and difficulity.

I must pass my BM in SPM.

I just hope that I can take the cert smoothly.

Please don't put so much of obstacle to block my way.

I admit that im the losser in malay.

but I will try my best in doing revision.

Don't hurt me so so deep.

pls let me find a way out from this crazy exam.

GOD BLESSING ME ....is it?

2009-09-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

如果别人做的东西没有影响到你，
很想问一句，关你叉事咩？

朋友可以变成这样，
那朋友要来做么？
排斥的游戏一点也不好玩。
这就是人性的一面。

我也会讨厌人的，如果他打扰到我。
他性格多sohai都好，
没有搞到我，
河水不犯井水。

希望每个人都可以开心的聚在一起吧。
不要被坏的一面遮盖完好的一面。
人有好有坏，就好像簿记拟的，
balance~ ~

just a little insight hiding in my heart

Out of difficulities, make maricle

2009-09-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

感谢疯狗为我设了华语。
突然间很想打部落格。
刚刚和我班的风少聊完天。
突然一大堆的感触跑出来。
最近的考试，都让我很害怕。
我是因为没有努力？
还是我根本就不是读书的料。

可是我还会继续升学的。

刚刚和风少说大家的理想。

它的设计梦，还是很坚持。

期待她的成就。

我呢，升不升班是一个问题。

其实我很怕，可是我也不知道自己怕什么。

因为我知道，如果我要升班，是一定有办法的。

因为就算是成绩不过，我还有补考的机会。

问题是，我真的很不想补考。

以我的成绩，我应该可以直接升班，

如果我肯用心去读。

可是我和我自己说，如果不升班，

我连补考也不要，我想直接走人。

说真的，我真的很讨厌考试。

要我补考，很难！

如果我能够直接升，那我就会继续读。

要不然，我一定进学院了。

很像念商五的朋友们。

很多都走了。

为了自己的理想而离开了这个校园。

这次过不了关，我也会为自己的理想而出去，

寻找自己的一片天空。

我答应自己，我一定会得到成果的。

人生的路，不一定每一条都是死的。

我总能找到出路，让自己继续活下去。

可能五年后的我们，

又会坐在同一个地方，

高谈大笑的说我们分开后的经历。

现在的我，根本就被考试锁死了。

我根本做不到我想做的东西。

我还是好胜的我。

可以不择手段的完成我的心愿。

我不管别人怎样看我，

我只想对得起我自己。

我虽然不爱读书，但我爱我的前途。

所以我会为自己买个保险，继续升学。

SPM一定要考好来。

学校的成绩，也尽量尽力吧。

我的人就是这样，每次都是最后一分钟。

就是那么的喜欢冒险的生活。

很刺激，很担心。。更爽。

一切就让命运去决定。

但是，就由我来掌控命运。

我不会永远是输家。

我期待我自己的未来。

怎样都好吧，先考试加油。

明天放假一天，在家尽量提起精神读书。

又在听着同一首歌，Out of this club

这首歌很有感觉，听了一年，都还不觉得闷。

曾经听过很多人称赞我，怎么我觉得现在像一堆垃圾？

希望这过渡期，可以快点过。

让我重新地站起来，继续走到尽头。

OUT of difficulities, MAKE maricle.

gd or bad?

2009-09-21T06:57:00.000-07:00

Today francis woke me up in the early morning.
A little msg he sent to my phone.

He came my place for waiting me change clothes.

Then we took some pic in the house.

Check it out baby~

Yo~ we are hip-hoper~..

You wanna challenge us?

Don't play play..(kidding kidding)

Breaking on floor

L kick~

Haha, I have been never dance for time immemorial.

But I am still passion for it.

Hehe.

then we rushed to Pavilion.

took our lunch at there too.

haiz....lazy ..pic will tell u wat i want to tell.

Yes, I have a nice day yet I have a bad day.

I took lot of pic, but finally, my camera spoit..

what the fucking matter .

It passed......whatever......

Hari raya

2009-09-20T08:54:00.001-07:00

WAKE UP!!! my mother shouted...
HAHA, my parent brought me to a Datuk house,
because they hari raya,
so we have been invited to there.
Tell u hor, I ate so many food there,
I only like to eat their rice, is white rice.
Haha, that mean I was not really passion for malay food ler~

Moreover, My parent and my relative went to visit mine another relative at sedang.

I sat my relative car to our destination, cuz I wanted to chat with my cousin.

All are planing about intake which college after SPM.

But I am still feeling confuse about my future way.

Well, just let my result to decided all of it.

After visit my relative, I had dated my friends to form a study group.

We study at lesure mall starbucks...

Actually was me need help by friend about math.

Very relax, felt like not studying at all.

Below is some pic about us.

tuition complete, then my parents came arround lesure mall to fetch me,

they brought me to take dinner at old klang road.

we ate japanese food again in the same place which last time they celebrated at.

Waited so long for the order, stomach keep making noise.

arrived home about 9 something.

my BI teacher came my house to make tuition.

Until 11 left, she only go back home.

My activities start from morning until now.

I am tiring, exhauted right now.

Tomorrow, will meet francis at somewhere.

haha, I am so excited to see him tomorrow.

really long time no see.

have a nice day....~~~~~

Exam coming

2009-09-18T05:26:00.000-07:00

After this week,
Is time to face the SPM trial exam in my life.
I feel blood froze about my exam.
Why don't I do preparation earlier?
I always the last minute guy to face all things.

I scare the question will come toward me again.

Relative usually like to ask how many A you got.

Walau, Don't compare the result of ur son or daughther with result of mine k?

Anyway, I sure will do my best in exam.

I will deal my timetable properly.

Some of my classmate has bought some exercise books to do.

They are so hardworking.

I think I also need to buy some excersice book.

If got the heart, it will never too late.

Should utilize all my free time to spend on study.

it is not the right time for me to relax right now.

After thet, I need to make a big dicision in my life.

either choose A level or direct to senior 3.

it is the problem that I thinking now.

haiz, exam jitter~~~~~

BOYS like GIRLS

2009-09-17T08:40:00.000-07:00

Since the day was passed...
What's going On?
I was so innocent...
Can I know what I have did for you?
Cassie, come on....
Anything wrong?
Really speechless~
Girls is damn weird.

fuck you without reason.

Ya, I'm okay, im fine~

BOYS like GIRLS,
boys like weird things.
I just feel curious with you ...
but then, I really couldn't investigate probaly.
and, I was not interested again.
TIRED with certain strange personality.
Or maybe, I'm still learning in progress.

It came back

2009-09-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

Wau, My lovely tuesday.

I was legally took my P Licence finally.

I was blood froze right after I arrived the place.

My leg keep shivering when putting on the crash.

But, I did it...

I drove my car pulling into the side very carefully.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Then, I called Brian and wanted to go out with him.

I met him at time square and he introducted two new friends to me.

I made many friends today.

First at bangi, then at time square.

felt good~

~~~~~~~~

Long time no go in to the cinema.

I watched Final Destination with them.

This movie is just okay.

It should not say good.

it was too fake.

~~~~~~~~

Then have our dinner at Pavilion's certain restorant.

Liva, brian, teng and me talked much of funny topic there.

this kind of feel I have lost for a long time already.

All came back at the moment.

I enjoyed the moment we sat together.

Hope we still got the chance.

~~~~~~~`

Haiz~ I was absent today.

Miss many lesson,

and lots of homeworks need to passup.

My artwork need to spend time to do.

maybe after finish my blogging.

My future seem like going to the dim side.

Halt,

I need to pull u back.

Back to my dream.

I will not have a dim future.

Watch out man.

12.09.09

2009-09-12T07:00:00.000-07:00

Old building, how many history behind it?

Who know?

It was an art picture, after I captured.

No meaning...but it looked nice.

I'm not a professional photoghraper,

But I love photoghrap.

I love to capture every beautiful moment in my life.

Haiz~ I am feeling afraid.

All of difficulities coming toward me.

As a teenager growing up to become an adult,

I need to learn how to face difficulities.

Learn how to take care myself.

This year, I seem like introverted.

less talkative.

Just talking with friends very seldom.

Personality is changing right now.

It was infinite frightening myself and some of my friend.

I really don't know.

I suddenly missing the time I spent with jin at his home.

we talked a lot without uneasy.

what we think and what we said.

Problem always make people distract.

Is time to spend all time to focus on thing which very crucial.

Such as SpM trial or legal SPM.

Many friends told me, it's not a important exam.

Because they only put effort on UEC.

My sister told me, both also should focus.

HEHE, haiz, Whatever.

Last but not least,

I'm really hope that I can use back chinese to type my blog,

just like last time.

But until now, I still haven install chinese into my laptop yet.

Or maybe I will not install already,

It already became my habit.

Seriously,

Using english is really uneasy.

chinese is more comfortable...

hehe......hey, I am chinese private school's student wor.

although my chinese is not good enough.

end up my post with this simple picture.

It end tonight!

good night~

take

care

lame post

2009-09-10T08:35:00.000-07:00

~ My not so cool photograph~

~~~~~~~~

I had miss the precious date in my life,

which is 090909.

I didn't realize that it was a special date.

But fine, it doesn't matter.

~~~~~

My parents is going to flight back Malaysia on this sunday.

im looking forward for my thing they buy to me.

hehehehe...(evil laugh).

~~~~~~~~~~

I really love end of years.

there have so much fun and activities waiting for me.

yet, it's also a pressure and frighten month.

exam and exam,

all of it have totally enrichment my life.

I feel great, beside, I feel scare.

~~~~~~

Moon cake festival is coming soon,

how is ur plan to do celebration?

I still remember since I was still child,

I was really captivate with moon cake and candle.

enjoy the feel with my parents.

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Now I do know why sometime while I'm going out with friends,

the feel make me so uncomfortable.

But if my parents beside me, it is totally diffrent.

yes, weird right?

while I reach home late, I feel very compunction,

that's why the feel make me uncomfotable.

So, if I done all my works,

I only can play without burden.

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anyway, hope dream come true.

sry for my lame post.

take care

suffer

2009-09-08T08:06:00.001-07:00

I don't ever like to "tam" girls...
and I have no idea to make girls happy...
don't call me to do thing like that.
I'm so moody right now.
Don't know, just feel like a failure.
what the hell am I?

My heart was keep worrying something,
I don't know how to describe my feel like now.
I just want to have a empty space to let my brain rest.
even in a corner...
I feel tired but i can't sleep well in the night...

something I must tell someone...
pls dun think so much and what u mean is back to the begining?
This days i was really really tired.
I don't know how to express myself to you.
I'm suffer.....
I just want to have a rest...can I get it?

If, You really want to leave me...anytime you can...

I just hope there is someone giving me support now.
I really dunwan to lost my way....
I'm wondering.....
I really couldn't find back my soul.
I'm worrying my mum, my family, my result, and my future...
am I thinking too much?
HAIZZZZZZ~~~~~~~~~~~

am just an average person

2009-09-06T06:27:00.000-07:00

I'm just an average person.
Woke up in the afternoon,
eyes totally haven't open yet,
then already switch on my laptop.

Today, keep watching a hong kong drama,
Funny, yet can learn something.
it get over my boredom...
in the same time,
it wasted me much precious time.
But i did not regret about that.

Mum calling and fetched me to buy food for dinner.
a restorant name "face to face" which I was bought noodles from there.
An indonisian spoke chinese with me...
I was freaked, but actually it is a very normal matter.
I just felt dissapointed on myself...
why people can learn our language as well like a hell?
and why my malay just like a shit?
I'm not suitable to live in this country.

am just an average person.

find out the "why", then you can find out the "how"

2009-09-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

I usually online, and thinking what I still can do.
I walked inside to my sister room,
suddenly let me found a book which call "retire young, retire rich".
I think this book is very popular in Malaysia even in singapore.
My friend introduced it to me before but I was not interested.
My boredom gave me chance to learn new things.
because of my boredom, I tried to hold up the book.
I tried to turn to the first page.

It is a story of a man, how to get the thing he want.
So how can i get the thing that I want?
If I want to get something which I want,
I may need to take on my self-doubt and laziness.
It says, dun always ask how to success...
u may ask urself why u want to success.
Find out the "why", then you can find out the "how".
Such as why student need to take good result on his exam?
because he want to intake a best university or maybe get high education level.
Then he will know how to do.

For me? hehe...I need to take on my laziness.
Is it hard? I'm just arguing with myself.
People says, actually money cant make u happy,
But money can buy u the time to do what you want,
and pay money to other doing what you hate.
But I hate studying...this thing, nobody can help.
although I hate it, But i still need to complete it.
Don't ask me question, just look at my future.
I start loving books......
appreciate~

Thing that I need to say

2009-09-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

Something I shoud say which is the true I need to express.

Yes, Maybe you're right.

our relation ship at now is just friend.

And it should be the truth.

We don't make any promise for each other,

But it couldn't represent what.

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Something you are very wrong,

I don't want to start is because I still want to be single.

I haven't tell you the true yet is because I want to make sure it will not have any mistake.

I think you should understand me.

You really don't know me.

You don't know what I'm thinking.

I am not that what you're thinking...

You're just thinking too much..

Nobody i want to care~

No "HER"

anyway, I just hope that you can accompany me anytime,

AND it is what I want to tell.

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Sry for the joke today,

I thought you was really playing with me.

I don't go with you is because "just for fun".

Dun save it in ur heart.

easy come, easy go.

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I scare lonely, but I still enjoy the life like now.

You are the one who treat me better.

Pls don't hate me!