Wednesday, April 21, 2010

这个夜晚,我觉得很充实。
我好久没有用手写字了,
知从spm完毕以后。
一直在用电脑,
也忘记了自己的字体是怎样的。
好久没有deadline的感觉。
没有功课要交。
可是今天终于感觉到了,
我要帮忙榕惠完成他去香港比赛的作品。
榕惠,支持你哦。
一定要完成你自己的梦想。

你不需要读会计,商业才帮得上我忙。
因为你的鼓励,就是我每一天的动力。
知道么?

很多东西,我暂停了很久。
我自行给了自己一个很长的假期。
我的假期多两个星期就要结束了。
我很期待重新的感觉。
他让我感觉很新鲜。
在这新的开始,一切都不能向以前一样。

不管以前的我是聪明,笨蛋。
一切都已过去了。
下一个天亮,才是我要奋斗的方向。

最近我都没有在工作了,
我赚的钱,停了。
终于明白什么是手停口停了。

一直以为自己有多么的厉害,
其实还只不过如此。
我被胜利冲破头脑了,
因为自己的好胜心蒙掉了自己的眼睛。
我做人是有信心,
不能肯定每一件事情都可以做得很好,
可是,我会尽力去做。

有时候我不应该给自己太多的压力,
我自己想得太多,
就算躺着在床上,也很难入睡。
很想把自己做到最好,
可是偏偏现在就是很烂。
是时候让自己好好的睡一觉了。

每个人都有自己的梦想。
我的梦想,就是实现梦想。
残废人士都可以参加奥运,
那我们正常人还有什么事不能?
we can be more!

晚安地球人。
晚安小榕惠。
我的睡美人要好好休息了。
起床记得找外星人。

Monday, April 19, 2010

今天的心情怪怪的。
我开始安静起来了。
不知道要说什么。
也不懂该说些什么。
每当我不开心的时候,
我都不知道可以找谁陪我聊天。
好多好多心事想说。
很想痛快的大哭一场。

刚刚在想,其实这个世界还有多少关心我的人。
想来想去想不通。
又在想,曾关心过我的人,现在呢?
感觉时间就是很短暂,
我真的很珍惜对我好的人。
有的时候我会很感动。
忘记了感动到哭的感觉是怎样的。

从来没有一个人可以很了解我。
因为有的时候就连我自己也不懂自己。
感觉每一天都戴着面具做人,
很不真实的生活。
很害怕自己会受到伤害。
一直控制着自己。
很害怕再也不会有很开心的一天。
老天也很喜欢和我开玩笑,
每当给了我一个希望,
就突然的把它拿走。

一开始没有期望,就不会失望。
我的内心世界很复杂。
我真的很不开心,
很想有人可以陪我聊天。

还记得以前我向碧琦发很大脾气,
因为我的脾气,他离开了我。
其实我以前是很紧张他,
所以才会这样。
那时候开始,我就和自己说要把坏脾气改掉。
也许不会有人喜欢我这样的人。
十个过来,也许走了九个。
我太傻了,一直以为自己很好,
回想看,其实我也不是什么好东西。

如果我撞车失忆了,
我就再也不需要管到底还有谁会理我。
不需要人家理。
什么都不需要。

唉~我不知道。
现在很想死掉,什么都不用管。
一开始我就不应该来到这个世界!
真的很不应该。

晚安地球人。

Sunday, April 18, 2010

We are the couple.
` haha`
`
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I woke up pretty early at saturday.
Had have dim sum for breakfast with rong hui and ming wei.
That was my very first time of waking up early since spm ended.
haha
.
Then We went to KLCC pc fair.
accompany my dear shop arround there.
.
After that, we went to maison club.
Freaking much people there.
really people mountain people sea.
The beep make me feel bad.
It was not normal loud, is fuckin loud.
haiya, clubbing is like that one.
.
Overnight at my dear home.
We both sleep until 5pm in the next day.
having breakfast plus lunch at lesure mall old town.
haha
.
My daddy had already bought me a car.
Is for me drive to college next time.
Not bad even that's not a branded car.
cuz i'm just 18.
.
Malaysia make me feel bored.
any nice place intro?
shopping complex is damn bored except u got thing to buy.
other than this, what can entertain me?
No more party recently, no more event or function.
My life is going down down down.
I need some fun.
I need some people.
All my friends not free is because boss had bought their time.
They need to work for money.
.
I noticed if i am rich, I will not feel happy at all.
Because i got no one can share with.
But if i am fucking rich, i will be fucking happy.
because i can buy all my friend's time.
haha.
.
Haiz...Why can't I born rich?
.
Am listening to fm static, tonight. again.
I love this song.
It's not very special, but suit my feel.
.
suddenly like to wake up early everyday.
I love the morning sun.
Because it make me feel healthy.
haha.
.
is time to sleep. good night to everyone.
and I miss you my dear rong hui.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

做人真难。
不知道,今天和榕惠吵架了。
对不起。
感觉我不懂得别人的心情。
我很自以为是,很自大,很自恋。
这些都是我的缺点。

我很想做个改变。
对自己太有自信,期望太高,
到后来只会让自己跌得更伤。
最近都感觉很累。
也不知道自己在做什么。
很慢无目的的走。
我觉得很失败。
有时候晚上也觉得自己很孤单。

真的不想去想太多,
很想睡醒就算。
我有种说不出来的感觉,
他让我觉得很悲,很累。
我很不开心。
没有原因的不开心。
可能是太久都没有真真的笑过了。
也忘了自然笑和开心的感觉是怎样的。

这些年来,不知道有谁曾陪过在我身边。
很不确定的到底谁是我的好朋友。
那我的未来呢?他又在那里?
我很lost啊~

榕惠,你是真的喜欢我么?
想说的是,我希望未来的日子你都会在。
很想与你分享我的下辈子一直到老。
我不知道这个愿望会不会实现。
但是我希望会。
不想你对我发脾气,
也不想和你吵架。
因为我很害怕这样会让你离开我。
我只希望开开心心的一起过日子。
我不敢期望太高,
可是我就是情不自禁的想得到这一切。

如果这个世界只有一种人,你说多好。
我们真的性格不合么?
不懂,这句话很伤人。
因为在我的字典里,从来不会有这一句话。
这些都是想分开的理由。
根本是废话!
从来就没有人的性格可以百分百的合在一起。
只要你是真心喜欢那个人,你就会包容他。
在包容他的过程,你一点也不觉得委屈。
重点是,你看到她开心,你就自然会开心。
所以阿,两个人在一起,
要说的只有开心和不开心,
从来就没有和不合得来。
在一起需要千万个理由。
可是分开,只需要一个理由就够了。
这个就是爱情的最高境界。
所以台湾才会有那么多情歌推出。
也能销售的那么好。

我希望我能够和喜欢的人一起开开心心。
互相迁就也不会感觉到委屈的那种。
这样你想要维持多久,由你控制。
因为这样就好幸福拉,
分手这两个字眼也会离我们很远很远,
甚至看不见,也记不了,什么叫做分手。
因为我们每一天只看见另外的两个字,
幸福,或开心。

榕惠,我爱你。
不知道你怎样想呢?

请读者别怪我写那么多情情踏踏的东西。
我也不想的。让你们肉麻了一下。
可是本少就是正谈恋爱中啊。
所以有所感触。
别见怪。
谢谢

可能我写这些东西是一厢情愿,
但是发自内心,
不找个通道发泄,
我会睡不着。
晚安。

Thursday, April 8, 2010

What I really want is hold you tight.

Berry koh. can I ?

Monday, April 5, 2010

make it happen


Hello guys.
Am not serious to bloggin recently.
Feeling like not in mood.
I just came back from singapore, it's not long.
By the way, my sister yeeni will visit me again.
She will meet me up next week from singapore.
I'm here waiting for her with her dear boy friend.
I have never see her boy friend arround.
This will be a good chance to meet up her little boy.
Yes, something I want to say.
I hold rong hui's hand tight.
I miss her suddenly in the night.
My life is so wonderful and colorful.
Good things all coming toward me in this year.
I think this year gonna be a good good year.
College start soon.
PC fair accept me.
UCSI accept me.
Berry accept me.
Questnet accept me.
I got it all.
im satisfied but not at all.
cuz i still got my dream.
Thanks for my parents.
they are working freaking hard to earn money.
daddy gonna buy me a car soon,
he told me, cuz I need it to school.
But I dun ever know when I can get it.
parents need to pay me money for school fee.
daddy said will sub me a credit card maybe after this year.
they give me all.
But I know I shouldn't get everything from them.
im already 18, not a kids.
everything I need should depand on myself.
all the things I want should find if by myself.
Cuz im not a rubbish.
I know I shoud do well.
Money make me crazy.
it make me wanna study well.
it make me feel terrible when im still doing ntg here.
Can I share my dream here?
I want a latest sport car in the future.
I want to have my own company in the future.
I want to have my own house with perfect design in the future.
I want to have a lot of best friends to support me in the future.
I want to have a good partner when starting my own business.
I want to have an unlimited black credit card to buy all thing i want.
I want my parents have a healthy body and watching me to success.
I want to study until MBA if I really got the heart.
I want to have a perfect 10 wife in the future.
I want to have a lovely and good family in the future.
I want to show off to all my enemy in the future.
I want to travel arround the world in the future.
I want to retire young when I achieve financial freedom.
I want to be the famous guy in the future.
I want everyone respect me.
I want people accept all the thing i do.
LAST but not LEAST,
I want to make it happen~!!!!
This is what I really want in my future.
everybody have their dream,
But we should find a way out and make dream come true.
but how?
Hold it tight, chance will never ever wait u when u miss it.
this world got no smartest person,
But people who know how to cherish all the chance in his life,
he is the smartest.
To understand well urself,
Find a right stage to perform yourself.
shout out loud, we are not rubbish anymore.
haha, why im like giving a talk.
sry about that, my heard is burning fire.
the fire to make my engine start.
start to think right and make imposible turn to possible.
step by step
One day, the door of the world will open for me.
I will stand on the top and look to the beautiful city.
Are you with me?
Let's make it happen.

Friday, April 2, 2010

好拦翅系甘!

有D人好烂翅系甘!
烂你啦。
你甘日系用么烂身份吊七我?
大烂过我就系大烂晒?
你烂就大!

我就系吾拦爽9你!
我就系吾拦识9你!
我就系吾拦知,因为你无拦知!

真系吾明白点解总要同你同校。
我diu!
见都你真系想打7你啊妈,
好想问9你啊妈当年做爱系吾系做的好烂爽,
生左你你件垃圾出来。

无系我面前做到好翅系甘!!!
mother fucker...

You are naturally fucker!
你天生会做爱!!!
你被狗叼啦含家岭!

diu你晒9我精神,
全家被狗叼啦

good your mother fucker night!

NAH~~~~!!!!!凸!!!